I master myself...in Cutting my own hair....

You know in my teenager's day, I cut my own hair...yup my own hair..Tht's because I cant seem 2 satisfied with others people's cut....Theres always something wrong with my hair...( B4 I go 2 salon ) I'd ask my sister in law but she just cut on her preference & not wht I asked her 2 do...I'd ask my cousin but it's hurt like hell...So I start 2 cut my own hair...B4 I took hours 2 cut it, in my bedroom as well in the bathroom...Luckily no one ever saw me doing it hehehehe...But I'm not really care bout it coz I'm satisfied with the result...& no regret..Then I start going 2 salon & its seem ok ( I guest )...But wht I hate the most is tht they 2 not really cut my hair ( by the way I'm wearing scarf & I go 2 salon which there's no guys in it )...I know tht I'm not showing it 2 people but I do want a gud haircut. But all the salon that I went cant seem 2 realize it..They just...zuuuuuppppp....just cut it like its not hair...4 example recently, I went 2 have a short haircut & the cut is simple as ever...straight cut around my neck...But the result is not wht I espected, I hate my new hair ( & its expensive too )...My front hair stick out & I hate it

So I decide this morning tht I have 2 do somthing bout it...I'll just cut it on my own..And the result is, well I expected it...I love it...No regret..I seem to master in cutting my own hair ...hehehe now thts wht I'm talking bout...All tht salon should shut down their shop...How can they do tht 2 their costumer..All the costumer is same..We pay you the same ma aiyaaa....Why do you think people who wear scarf doesnt deserve 2 have a nice haircut....Well You just wrong...shame on you...

xoxo

Give me a cash !!!

Why did money exist in this world...The value of money is just a number but able to affect us tht much..I hate it so much but I really need it so bad...irony right.. Like an annoying body part but just couldnt live without it..Emmm, nowadays life with no money mean you cant step forward in ur life nor in education, fashion as well as your social life...ala pegi tandas pun bayar ma..Hmmm ( ala sakit perut plak )..well I'll continue next time ...ouchhhh got 2 go chaow..xoxo

Please give peace & freedom..I just cant stand it anymore

I remember there was years in my teenager tht I suffered so much...I've lived in an environment tht totally not condusif 2 grow up..My father with his attitude problem, my brother with his attitude & family problem ( They live with us ), financial problem, my health problem, my other brother's problem & lot more..I'd remember how much I hate my life at tht time so so much..I can stand the rest but the one tht I'd remember the most is my father's attitude problem..At tht time , he just cant stop talking ( He still do it now )about everything..The small to the big thing, the present as well as the past, our family and other people...kind of prejudice 2 other then himself...Just cant stop complaining and the one tht suffered the most is my mother ( and me ). Of course its bring no harm physically but emotionally & mentally, I'd suffered a lot..I'd remember now how I hate it so much in my house & if I think tht time, if there's a place tht I can go, then I will go gladly....I hate all the complaining , all the harsh words..I just want a peace life

Now, it's starts all over again. The thing tht I hate the most...A non-stop talking person is living near me..Now I remembered why I didnt want a roomate, thts becoz I want 2 live a peace life without wasting my life thinking bout the other person's feeling or attitude. But I've got to tell you, this person bring back all my memory as well as the pain to me...

The worst part is, with all the pain & complaining I cant pay it back..Maybe I still trying to be "The gud person"..I hate myself for tht..I just cant talk back to her..I think tht if I do it, she will get hurt or worse, talk bad bout me 2 our friend..But I just cant do it..I really hate myself for tht..please give me a peace life, I just want to live my life..Ya Allah berilah kekuatan, kesabaran dan ketabahan kepada ku dalam menghadapi cabaran hidup. Moga Engkau memberi ketenangan jiwa kepada ku.
AMIN

The depender......Please Try to be independent

Yosh..gud day everyone...I think i've complained a lot lately ...maybe its the time of the month already ( PMS )..I'm easily getting annoy lately...Is it me or people around me just cant stop doing stuff tht annoy me. I've try to look on the gud side but still my heart exploding with annoying...

I really hate a depender..a person who love to depend on other people...if it was me...i'd felt really ashamed of myself. Its in include the people that cant stop asking other people & doesnt even care about other people's trouble just by helping them ( me ). Cant a person live with their own effort in big thing as well as the littlest thing...Whining on thing, I dont really hate listening to it, but if its too much then thats is a pain in the ass.

For me, a depender is:
A person who depend on other people 2 do their work ( hate it )
A person who is lazy enough even 2 find their own meal & let the other do it( hope you die of hunger )
A person who keep complained on thing & the other have to listen to them ( do you think other people live for you )
A person who use other people 2 get what they want & need ( the worst person alive )
A person who didnt care bout other people's trouble just by helping them ( why dont you just die )
A person who cannot stop whining as if the world exist only for them ( cut the crap )
A person who didnt even consider or think about other people's feeling even though those people is the one who always ( have ) help them.

I think a depender is the worst person alive .Macam peribahasa Melayu tu " HIDUP SEGAN MATI TAK MAHU". I think la kan, being a gud person is hard & annoying. When we just want 2 be nice but those depender took the opportunity to their own benefit..Ah what a life...Jadi baik susah, nak jadi jahat pun susah..

K >E>T>A>W>A

Astagfirullah...sblm ni sy ada post psl bahaya ketawa, bila dingat-ingat ketawa tu slalu dibuat sampai terbahak-bahak...Astagfirullah moga kita diberi petunjuk..sy tak pernah terfikir pula bnda2 begini boleh menghitamkan hati kita...klu kena autopsi hati sy ni mkin dah hitam legam kerana ketawa shj, tu blm msk dosa2 lain lg. Sama2 la kita bnyk2 kan beristigfar dan ingatkan Allah ..Ketawa, perkara kecil yg kita anggap remeh tp impak pd hati kita amat besar...Sy nak kongsi la ckit bagaimana ketawa menurut Islam ni ...Moga-moga ia menjadi pedoman dan panduan kita dalam menjalani hidup seharian...

KETAWA MENURUT ISLAM

Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda, maksudnya:":Celakalah orang yang berbicara lalu mengarang cerita dusta agar orang lain tertawa. Celakalah !" Riwayat Abu Daud.

Kelakar ialah perbuatan, kata-kata dan sebagainya yang dapat menggembirakan atau yang dapat menggelikan hati orang lain. Sinonimnya ialah jenaka, lawak dan gurau senda. Membuatkan orang lain senang hati adalah termasuk dalam amal kebajikan dan Rasulullah s.a.w juga selalu berjenaka dengan ahli keluarga dan para sahabat baginda.

Namun begitu bergurau mempunyai adab-adab tertentu yang telah digariskan oleh Islam seperti:
a) Tidak menjadikan aspek agama sebagai bahan jenaka seperti mempersendakan sunnah Rasulullah s.a..w .
b) Gurauan tersebut bukan merupakan cacian atau cemuhan seperti memperlekehkan orang lain dengan menyebut kekurangannya.
c) Gurauan itu bukan ghibah (mengumpat) seperti memburukkan seseorang individu dengan niat hendak merendah-rendahkannya.
d) Tidak menjadikan jenaka dan gurauan itu sebagai kebiasaan.
e) Isi jenaka adalah benar dan tidak dibuat- buat.
f) Bersesuaian dengan masa, tempat dan orangnya kerana adalah tidak manis bergurau pada waktu seseorang berada dalam kesedihan dan sebagainya.
g) Menjauhi jenaka yang membuatkan orang lain ketawa secara berlebihan (ketawa terbahak-bahak) kerana banyak ketawa akan memadamkan cahaya hati.

Sesungguhnya Rasulullah s.a.w apabila ketawa baginda hanya menampakkan barisan gigi hadapannya sahaja, bukan ketawa yang berdekah-dekah, mengilai-ngilai atau terkekeh-kekeh dengan maksud bahawa selaku seorang Muslim kita hendaklah sentiasa menjaga batas kesopanan dalam erti kata yang sepatutnya.

Ada riwayat yang menunjukkan bahawa kebanyakan ketawanya adalah dengan tersenyum, dan apabila baginda ketawa, baginda ketawa seperti embun yang dingin. Sementara itu, ada juga riwayat yang menyebutkan bahawa ketawa Rasulullah tidak menunjukkan gigi.

Bagaimanapun, semua perlakuan itu cuma sekadar mengingatkan umat Islam selaku umat pendakwah bahawa gurauan, ketawa itu cuma amalan untuk mengurangi ketegangan jiwa. Saidina Ali k.w juga menyebutkan bahawa sesekali kita perlu bergurau untuk menyebabkan jiwa rasa terhibur. Tetapi, ini tidak bererti kita perlu berhibur secara keterlaluan.

(Sumber: http://www.almunshi.com/am/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=231:kemahiran-guru-kecindan-dan-ketawa-dalam-islam&catid=31:galeri&Itemid=113 )

P/s: Semoga saudara-saudara Islam di luar sana beringat-ingat dalam setiap perbuatan yg kita lakukan...Wallahualam

Goofing Around?...

Goofing around?...well I do like goofing around but not too much & not all the time...if its too much like " just now ", it kind of annoying..You can call me d serious type of person but I like jokes & goofing around too...but Don't you agree with me ?..Saying & laughing for the small thing thts not funny at all...maybe people like tht think its funny..but the funny thing is others dont laugh at d word tht those people said but the person itself..I pity those people..desperate 2 get attention 2 d extend of make fool of themself...yeah I just got d correct term 4 tht " MAKE A FOOL OF ONESELF TO GET ATTENTION "

Well im not just going 2 say random thing & Nauzubillah ( Moga dijauhkan dari mengumpat )...I'm just telling wht i think & my feeling & Im not talking about anyone ( klu ada yg terasa )..Well I'd like 2 share this as something tht we should always bear in our mind.

Gelak ketawa dilarang Islam. Menurut pandangan Islam, bergelak tertawa adalah tidak baik dan makruh hukumnya. Ibn Mas'ud meriwayatkan dari Auf bin Abdullah bahawa biasanya Rasulullah S.A.W. tidak tertawa melainkan senyum simpul dan tidak suka melerek, iaitu tidak menoleh, kecuali dengan semua wajahnya. Hadis itu menunjukkan bahawa senyum itu sunat dan tertawa berbahak- bahak adalah makruh... .

Gelak ketawa dilarang Islam. Menurut pandangan Islam, bergelak tertawa adalah tidak baik dan makruh hukumnya. Ibn Mas'ud meriwayatkan dari Auf bin Abdullah bahawa biasanya Rasulullah S.A.W. tidak tertawa melainkan senyum simpul dan tidak suka melerek, iaitu tidak menoleh, kecuali dengan semua wajahnya. Hadis itu menunjukkan bahawa senyum itu sunat dan tertawa berbahak- bahak adalah makruh... . Maka itu seseorang yang sihat akal dilarang bergelak tertawa kerana mereka banyak bergelak ketawa di dunia akan banyak menangis di akhirat. Orang yang banyak menangis di dunia mereka akan banyak tertawa di syurga. Menurut Yahya bin Muaadz Ar-razi, ada empat perkara yang menghilangkan tertawa seseorang Mukmin :-

(1) Kerana memikirkan akhirat
(2) Kesibukan mencari keperluan hidup
(3) Risau memikirkan dosa
(4) Apabila tibanya musibah dan bala.

Jika seseorang sibuk memikirkan perkara itu, maka dia tidak banyak tertawa kerana banyak tertawa bukan sifat seorang Mukmin. Seperti yang diriwayatkan oleh Ibn Abbas r.a. "Sesiapa yang tertawa ketika membuat dosa, maka dia akan menangis ketika akan masuk neraka." Dalam satu riwayat yang lain, dikemukakan bahawa Imam Abu Hanifah pernah tertawa satu kali apabila dia menang berdebat dengan Amr bin Abaid Alqadari (seorang bermazhab Qadariah yang tidak percaya kepada takdir Allah). Selepas tertawa, Imam Abu Hanifah sangat menyesal lalu berkata: "Engkau berbicara tentang ilmu, aku tertawa, maka aku tidak akan berkata-kata kepadamu untuk selama-lamanya, maka aku sangat menyesal, sebab andainya aku tidak tertawa nescaya aku dapat menundukkannya dengan kefahamanku, sehingga menjadi kebaikan bagi ilmu." Menurut Islam, sesiapa yang meninggalkan bergelak tertawa akan mendapat darjat yang tinggi di sisi Allah. Sabda Rasulullah S.A.W. yang bermaksud: "Dan siapa yang meninggalkan senda gurau diberi wibawa dan keindahan, dan siapa yang meninggalkan tertawa, maka ia berwibawa dan hebat, dan siapa yang tidak menginginkan kekayaan orang maka ia dicintai." (Hadis Sahih).

Islam juga melarang seseorang melakukan sesuatu atau berkata sesuatu untuk mentertawakan orang lain atau menyebabkan orang lain tertawa.Contohnya ialah seperti berlawak jenaka di mana seseorang akan berlagak dan mengeluarkan kalimah yang menyebabkan orang lain tertawa. Menurut riwayat dari Ibrahim Annakhari beliau berkata: "Adakalanya seseorang mengeluarkan satu kalimah untuk mentertawakan orang di sekitarnya, maka Allah S.W.T. murka padanya lalu murka Allah itu merata kepada orang-orang yang di sekitarnya, yang tertawa bersamanya. Jika seseorang yang berkata kalimah yang direda oleh Allah, maka ia mendapat rahmat dan rahmat Allah itu diperolehi juga oleh orang di sekitarnya." Seseorang yang suka berlawak, berjenaka atau berolok-olok supaya orang lain tertawa, balasannya di akhirat ialah dimasukkan ke neraka "Wail''. Sebagaimana sabda Rasulullah S.A.W. yang bermaksud: "Neraka wail itu buat orang yang bercakap-cakap dengan berdusta dan berolok- olok supaya menimbulkan tertawa pada orang ramai, dan neraka wail itu untuk dia." (Hadis dikeluarkan oleh Imam yang tiga: Riwayat Bahaz bin Hakim).

Dalam Hadis itu Rasulullah S.A.W. mengulang kalimah "neraka wail itu untuk dia" sebanyak dua kali, membuktikan tegas dan kuatnya amaran terhadap orang yang suka bergelak tertawa dan berjenaka. Islam memberi peringatan bahawa semakin kuat hilai dan tertawa seseorang itu, semakin hampir iblis dan syaitan sambil tertawa berbahak-bahak menari-nari untuk melalaikan dia. Maka itu kita perlu awas daripada bergelak tertawa kerana perbuatan itu mengandungi lapan bahaya :-

(1) Dicela oleh ulama dan orang yang sopan serta sempurna akal.
(2) Memberanikan orang bodoh kepada kita.
(3) Jika bodoh akan bertambah kebodohannya, jika alim akan berkurangan ilmunya kerana seorang alim yang tertawa bererti telah memuntahkan ilmunya.
(4) Melupakan dosa-dosa yang lalu.
(5) Melupakan mati dan akhirat.
(6) Berani berbuat dosa kerana apabila tertawa nescaya akan membekukan hati.
(7) Menanggung dosa orang yang tertawa kerana tertawaan kita.
(8) Akan banyak menangis di akhirat.

Sabda Baginda saw : "Banyak ketawa itu mematikan hati dan melalaikan daripada mengingati akhirat dan mempusakai marah dalam hati".
( sumber : http://rezka.multiply.com/journal/item/32 )

P/s: Berilah peringatan sesama rakan

My Teaching Diary ...its " F "

Today im teaching a class of mine ( 6F , well its "F" )& d topic is shotput ( lontar pluru )..I was just trying to be nice 2 them & hope they can get d same opportunity as d other class in p & P. I've brought d softball's ball 2 replace d real bullet..And guess what, its raining & i hav 2 do my P & P in class only 2 show d technique of shotput...But as usual my thoughtfullness is a waste...there's some of d student give their full attention ( love them ) but just 30 % of them..And the rest, well i dun know what 2 say..

The most shocking thing is that i've asked a stdent 2 demonstrate in front without letting the ball go but in instant, he throw d ball 2 his friend with all his might..And i was juat going 2 call d boy b4 d other friend throw d ball again 2 this boy & hit his back...I'm speechless...If I just didnt think tht im a teacher, i've already throw all d ball to ...I hate tht boy...

Gosh why did i have 2 have student like tht...I know its " F " but i was just trying 2 teach them those skills...

well...need 2 keep my composure & keep d hard work ( ayat pun hancur dah ni )

chaow 4 now...xoxo...

I Am A TeAcHeR To bE...

Sometimes i really wonder whether my decision 2 be a teacher is right...even now ( final year ) that question still running through my head...mmmmm can i believe that the nature of an educator runs through my vein ( woah what a sentence )..sometime i really doubt tht. When my students start doing d 'abnormal attitude' and i seem 2 lost it, i start 2 think maybe i really dont have "IT" inside me..

Now i'm having my last practicum and i dun know why & how i get d naughtiest student of all in d whole world..I felt like i want 2 throw them out of the building or maybe tie them up in the tree or triple kick ..i dun know ..anything...i am so so annoy...

well, b4 i start 2 imagining thing , I suppose i tell a little bit story of my beloved student...They r naughty, lousy etc...word mean nothing 2 them...talking 2 them makes me like a standing tree talking all by myself..they dont even listen and punishment ....OMG they fear nothing...I'am losing myself & when i get stress, harsh word & action might possess me and all the thing i shouldnt do...

I am trying 2 be a gud teacher but im just a normal person..I wonder how d senior teacher can survive all the time...Teaching knowledge is one thing but educating people is d hardest & toughest thing in the whole World ( my world ).Especially when u get student like mine....

I really hope ( truly hope ) i can overcome this obstacle and become a gud & patient teacher ( im having class with them 2morrow )....May everyday will be my lucky day & I bcome stronger everyday ( Amin )

p/s: The title " TEACHER " is sometime too much 4 me 2 handle...well "Teacher To be " 2 be exact...

All the thing she said.....Running through my head

( Gambar Hiasan semata2 )

I got 2 say that I'm jealous wit beautiful girl ( like in d pic & love sunny SNSD so so much )....tell me i'd lie if i say women do not jealous of other pretty girl... especially when i watch korea's program...Keep me wondering why they look so much pretty and cute ...i try 2 take some cute pic but left me disgust with myself ( like ewwww its that me )Well i hate this feeling that often occur 2 me......emmmm....inconfidence in myself...am i that not pretty....well i left myself that question 2 answer later

chauw 4 now...xoxo

Feeling?.....hmmm MIX....

It's been a long time since i write anything in my poor blog...i guess there's a lot of workload for me since its my final year ( yeah)...I'm doing my last 3 month practicum now and i seem 2 be doing just fine ( i guess )...But its too much work to do and too little time 2 finish it...I still need 2 do my Lesson Plan, my 2 project, AR ( have 2 change d topic again ), my observation and the worst is not having money in my pocket as well as my account ( zero already )...Its s0 like I'm tired mentally and physically....I really need something 2 cheer my life up....maybe book allowance ( still waiting earnestly ) or maybe a boyfriend ? XD

Well, i hope everything going to be just fine and everything went well more than i expected....I really wish i can travel right now....Maybe Bandung , Indon ( end of year plan ) or Seoul, korea or maybe Ghuangzhou, China...hehehehe....still have 2 wait though...

Guess chaow for now....XOXO