Worst time of my life

24 Ogos 2014,
10.00 pm
26 years old

I think this is the worst time of my life especially today. Not physically but mentally. I feel tht nothing work out in my life right now. I don't know but I think this is the worst feeling ever. Feeling worthless. Feeling fragile like I might break any time soon. This is the time tht I ask question on what is the purpose of my life. Astagfirullah. I feel lonely. I feel nothing good come out of me. I feel tht I've got nothing tht I'm good at.

Aku insan yang lemah. Sometimes it crossed my mind that maybe if I was a little better, a little more active, smarter, prettier, friendly etc..A little more than I have now...But I know that even if I have it, it would never enough.

Astagfirullah. I know this is his test to me. This is one of Allah's test to me. Some people tested by having everything they want. But I guess for me, its by not having what I want. I will keep praying. I know that he will never let me down.