The woman who lost her way

I think that my future crumble upon me when I got the news that I have to leave to other state for my teaching post. It felt that a heavy rock pound my heart thousand times and I just can't help laughing..Am I crazy? No, I'm laughing coz the unthinkable is always happen to me..Whatever and whenever I plan for something, Allah will always show the unthinkable road for me to follow...

I've already plan what i want to do in the next 5 years of my life, buy a car, a house, doing my master and such and it's only revolve in Sabah or maybe peninsular Malaysia..And seriously I never have a flinch about sarawak and there I am in a few days. Thing just getting worst when I don't know much bout Sarawak and it hit me that how am I gonna turn my plan into reality in a place that so strange to me. I spend the next days organizing everything in a track and the rest is in K.I.V as I have to see whats waiting for me in Sarawak.

I've searched a few quotes that may help me feel better.



“If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there.” - Lewis Carroll

“Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.” - John Lennon

Maybe, well maybe my plan is just unreal and I have to wake up to see whats ahead.

“Just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can.” - Nicholas Sparks, At First Sight

Absolutely right...After spending days in thought, I got a hunch that everything will be just fine or its maybe just my brain playing a defense mechanism against all of the bitter truth..Reality is harsh.I know that for a long time but when it keeps coming, its really hard for me to consume...Anyway, what I always tell myself when reality struck is everything happen for a reason and I will wait for that reason...

Giving an advise?

Aha!!!! It's my first post in 2012...It's a new year tapi sy x rasa excited plak...hmmm maybe there's something wrong wit me..anyway today I want to talk bout giving an advise to people..Baru jer lepas beri nasihat kat anak buah bout things tht she should really start to care ...especially in relationship wit family, how she should behave to avoid criticism & wht is more important in life..Felt like I'm gone to far..Am I?

It's not like I want to be a busybody in the family, but I saw her grow up and I saw how my family's member change in a hard way.. In all those time, I kind of understand wht they expect to and wht's not in their family..My niece is wht I called in a stage of a "teenager"...I am understand her need to be free and with her friends and things like tht ,but all of it comes out in a way tht older people think bad...

Then, I decide to give her a piece of advise on stuff like care bout other people especially her parent coz she will definitely depend on them if she want to have a better education and stuff like that...I just hope she will get wht I mean and change...well hope it didn't make it worse...

Gosh, why did I fell like I just make things worse..I felt bad, but I'm telling the truth, right?...Duh I'm talking to my self again..keep telling myself tht I'm not a busybody in other people's problem..she's my niece anyway...well, I hope everything will be just fine and she'll take my advise for good use