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My very 1st Birthday Present

2012-02-04T05:34:00.006-08:00

Before leaving for Sarawak in a few day, I saw a box of chocolate in beautiful blue ribbon and I smiled...Funny but I'm touched...Its was a present from my friends (Meow & Nanz) before our SPP interview last year..

As long as I remember, I've never get any gift for my birthday.Well actually, I did get a small blue pencil case in elementary school once but that didn't count coz I told my sister-in-law that its my birthday..And after that its a history, nobody actually care bout my birthday..Even I myself already forgetting bout it a long time ago...Its kinda sad actually coz its seem that its like nobody really care the day you were born in this world..

But the chocolate was an unexpected one...Meow was surfing in my room and I was in the bathroom..I came in and saw the box with a card. I read it and it said "Happy early birthday and eat it for your birthday - from Meow & nanz"...I looked at her and she smiled..I'm so touched, felt like for once in my lifetime someone actually care..Its kinda sad coz I'll be separate from them...gonna miss you guys..

Well, I guess one have to care for their own self right?..I guess in the future I'll celebrate it myself or with my new friends or I just go where my friends are...

The woman who lost her way

2012-01-25T09:03:00.000-08:00

I think that my future crumble upon me when I got the news that I have to leave to other state for my teaching post. It felt that a heavy rock pound my heart thousand times and I just can't help laughing..Am I crazy? No, I'm laughing coz the unthinkable is always happen to me..Whatever and whenever I plan for something, Allah will always show the unthinkable road for me to follow...

I've already plan what i want to do in the next 5 years of my life, buy a car, a house, doing my master and such and it's only revolve in Sabah or maybe peninsular Malaysia..And seriously I never have a flinch about sarawak and there I am in a few days. Thing just getting worst when I don't know much bout Sarawak and it hit me that how am I gonna turn my plan into reality in a place that so strange to me. I spend the next days organizing everything in a track and the rest is in K.I.V as I have to see whats waiting for me in Sarawak.

I've searched a few quotes that may help me feel better.

“If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there.” - Lewis Carroll

“Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.” - John Lennon

Maybe, well maybe my plan is just unreal and I have to wake up to see whats ahead.

“Just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can.” - Nicholas Sparks, At First Sight

Absolutely right...After spending days in thought, I got a hunch that everything will be just fine or its maybe just my brain playing a defense mechanism against all of the bitter truth..Reality is harsh.I know that for a long time but when it keeps coming, its really hard for me to consume...Anyway, what I always tell myself when reality struck is everything happen for a reason and I will wait for that reason...

Giving an advise?

2012-01-25T08:31:00.001-08:00

Aha!!!! It's my first post in 2012...It's a new year tapi sy x rasa excited plak...hmmm maybe there's something wrong wit me..anyway today I want to talk bout giving an advise to people..Baru jer lepas beri nasihat kat anak buah bout things tht she should really start to care ...especially in relationship wit family, how she should behave to avoid criticism & wht is more important in life..Felt like I'm gone to far..Am I?

It's not like I want to be a busybody in the family, but I saw her grow up and I saw how my family's member change in a hard way.. In all those time, I kind of understand wht they expect to and wht's not in their family..My niece is wht I called in a stage of a "teenager"...I am understand her need to be free and with her friends and things like tht ,but all of it comes out in a way tht older people think bad...

Then, I decide to give her a piece of advise on stuff like care bout other people especially her parent coz she will definitely depend on them if she want to have a better education and stuff like that...I just hope she will get wht I mean and change...well hope it didn't make it worse...

Gosh, why did I fell like I just make things worse..I felt bad, but I'm telling the truth, right?...Duh I'm talking to my self again..keep telling myself tht I'm not a busybody in other people's problem..she's my niece anyway...well, I hope everything will be just fine and she'll take my advise for good use

Alone in the crowd

2011-09-06T18:41:00.000-07:00

Hi guys, its been a long time since I wrote my last post here..Sorry, just having d busiest time ever in my life & it just keep comin..but I'm trying to write something somehow..

I want to ask sometin...Have you ever face the time when nobody listen to you. I have,like all the time...As I remember, only my mother and a few can counted friend ever listen to me & what I said..I mean really listening & not just listen...I feel disapointed on myself...Maybe I'm just a boring person tht nobody listen to me..But isn't tht just not nice..Sometime I feel tht I didn't deserve this..I do listen to people so it's kind of unfair. Huh (sigh)... I'm kind of lonely coz it felt tht nobody really care bout wht I said...Huh (sigh) again....

I'm lonely and lonely and lonely or maybe I'm just a really boring person

Akon's song "lonely" suit me best...~ Lonely, I'm miss lonely, I have nobody, I'm on my own ~ la la la

The situation where nobody listening to me kind of made me use to it. You know wht I'm just going to shut my mouth...Its not like I'll die if nobody listen to me..I'll talk to myself then..And one day I'll find people tht will appreciate me more..This is ridiculous..I deserve better...I'll tell the world tht I'll live my life to the fullest..Being nice to people is a waste...I'd better take a good care of my ownself

p/s: Sometimes being selfish is a must

Wooohoooo....

2011-07-12T09:07:00.000-07:00

Salam utk suma...fulamak lama dah tak post kat blog ni...rindu plak..Hari ni takde bende yg specific nak di citer...Just want to tell you guys yg sy dah msk last semester...Already? hehehe...lamanya blajar baru nak hbs..5 tahun oo bukan kejap tu..Orang tua2 kate klu dah kahwin dah ade banyak angkatan dah (Anak la)...Tapi takpe penantian tu tinggal kejap je lagi...klu kira betul tak sampai 4 bulan je lagi ...perggghh tapi penangan keje utk bulan2 terakhir ni..blh gilo ke milo ooo

Tapi kan yg saya heran sangat ni, apsal cam takut plak ni.. ye la pasni bkn bergelar student dah tp dah jd org bekeje...hehehe ( bahasa yg sy guna pun tak hape2 entah )..Org sekeliling pun bkn kawan2 dah bersama selama 5 tahun, tp org2 lama yg dah lama bekeje...aiseh takut plak ...ketar pala lutut ni...mcm ilmu di dada ni blm cukup plak..

Tapi takpe ( banyak juga penggunaan tapi ni )...tu pasni blakang kira..gue nak siapkan keje yg menggilakan ni dlu ( walaupun takde mood )..k chow for now...

Layan video matluthfi ni lu

Hate it when it slow.....hmmmm

2011-05-26T04:14:00.000-07:00

Yosh.....Its been a while....There's a lot tht I want to share wit you guys but my BB seems kind of slow & I'm hate it...So I'll post more as soon as my Broadbnd find it's way to me..Wait for me k....chaow..xoxo..

Two down, One more to go and then BAMM!!!!!! Touchdown!!!!!!

2011-05-23T21:23:00.000-07:00

Yoshh....Salam 2 you guys...I'm happy (smiling)..Well as you can see d post title above, it's kinda exaggerating but yeah...its almost touchdown and I'm free yeahhh....Actually its bout my exam..one more paper to go, d killing paper...They really keep d best for d end, d most difficult paper...Well kinda killing my mood just by thinkin bout it but I'm just gonna enjoy it for a few more minute...hmmm lalalala..I just want 2 enjoy this new song of FT Island...woah so cool, so handsome, Hello hello Kupai kupai he3......

I should be studying right now but I just cant focus...yeah focus...d paper just now took all my energy & I need to recharge..Just cant wait 2 go home, its ho ho ho holiday...I keep thinkin bout all d things tht I want 2 do...he3 I want cut my hair, hug my mom, bullying my niece & nephew, watch TV , gossiping wit my sister , cooking my fav food...woah its heaven...Just this one more paper...aisehhh.....

Just wait, d minute I send my paper 2morrow, I'm gonna sing Hello hello Kupai Kupai in d exam hall...he3 just kidding...Woahhhh...Well I'm gonna enjoy a little more & then I'll start studying again....he3 I'm in good mood....Let's enjoy some of my favourite song...

Enjoy......

And I'm " The left out girl"

2011-05-19T20:29:00.000-07:00

Just love dis song

Hii, guys...It's me again..Sementara upload mood utk blajar ni, I just want to share something to you guys...d things tht I just realize (OMG, its terrible)...I've always thought tht things in d past is still d same & will always be d same, same old friend, old attitude etc..I've always keep in me tht d past is d best & my friends would be d same ( melalut dah, sy pun x fhm ayat sndri dah )...Ok, cuma korang tak pernah rasa ke deep inside you tht all d good things in your past will never change...Bila korang tgk gambar2 dulu2, gmbr kwn2 di facebook, kita fikir yg "ow skrg dia ni study kat situ" and thts just it. And d your crush ( or sebaliknya ), well you always think they will always be d same...

Well, you know wht tu lah yg sy ckp "the left out girl" and sy mengaku IT'S ME. I've always hav d thought tht things will & always be d same as it 5 years ago ( duhh )...Then reality struck me, cam kena panahan kilat la..The trigger was d ehem ehem d guy I used to ..( you know wht I'm talkin bout )...Well, he already hav a girlfriend and yeah...Then sy fikir , wht wrong wit me, he already move on & me?...Still walkin in memory lane..hidup dlm kenangan ..Bila fikir blk, it's been years...Thought I still a teenager, rupa2nya dah dewasa dah...Then, I take a look on my friends picture in FB & I never realize they accomplish tht much in their life...Bila tgk blk, my past move on wit their life & I'm not in there..In d ways tht sy x prnh jangka...Guess world not revolve around me huh..

And here I am again, I've been thinking lately why I cant just let things go, those memory, d guys & move on?..Why I'm still hanging in the past? Why cant I realize all of tht? And I'm regretting why I didn't create a better memory in d past...

Huh...huh..( mengeluh lagi )...I guess sooner or later reality will take control & wash away those wishful thinkin...And I admit tht it's my selfish thought tht keep me in my own shell..Well, I'm awake now & ready to walk..I will bear in mind " You are a grown up girl now & start living your life ".Yeahh I will do tht....And for you guys outhere, if you ever feel even once d situation like me, lets just move on...( sedih plak ni )

p/s: Life must go on...oh yeah, I almost forgot muahhh ...xoxo :D chaow for now

Can you just be simple?

2011-05-17T11:22:00.000-07:00

Sekadar gambar hiasan jer...

Assalamualaikum guys....here I am again, pop out of nowhere just dropping some fruit of thoughts in my blog..Even though I'm still struggle with my exam, I just can't let this one thing go...mostly this is for d girls & woman, maybe man but come on la...This is about wearing scarf ( tudung ), shawl or whatever style you prefer..I've been surfing blog & FB for shawl etc ( just love cuci mata online & sometime do online shopping ) but my eyes have been terrorize with some kind of fashion....I'm not d kind of trendy girl, I'd like to keep something simple especially my "outing" fashion, not so "kampungan" & not so "I'm d big city girl" image.....There this one fashion of girls wearing shawl & wearing some sort of mix korean cloths. I mean what the..? What was that? With the colourful shawl & tht outfit colour ...it's like OMG this is a living rainbow....Shawl dia kan dahlah colour dah campur leopard print dah, pastu baju warna hijau with puffy and the skirt, OMG it's like you just put a colourful blanket around you & daaaa look at me yaaiii....Girls it's not tht I'm an anti but cant you put it a little simple...mata sakit la tgk, please? ( blinking eyes )

Tolonglah jgn letak warna bnyak sngt, dari biru + merah + hijau + purple = You tell me la...I feel like my eyes just have been terrorize ( sory but it's like fashion victim? )...Isn't wearing scarf & shawl is for d main purpose " tutup aurat "?. Takkan sampai mcm tu skali. ni ada yg tmbah sanggul smpi tudung nmpk tinggi ke langit...Biarlah sederhana jer, keep d colour & d style simple. I'm not talking "no" but berpada2 la...style plak jgn la smpi org pun sesak nafas je tgk...Yang paling penting is " Niat "...Betul tak..Why we wear scarf / shawl etc, why we wear those cloths...well, bukan nak berceramah ni, just sharing with girls outhere.Well I guess I better stop talking before melalut bnyk & start studying again..well chaow for now...xoxo..just think bout it for a moment

p/s: Sory,I'm not an anti but just sharing my thought..peace 2 d world

Is it that time already? Gosh I just hate exam

2011-05-08T19:09:00.000-07:00

Exam? waaaaaaaaa....d word itself annoys we.. Well, cant I just skip dis part & grad..Ow ( eyes rolling ) I hate studying. I called this time of semester as d worst part tht I've got to go through before d holiday...I wish I got a time travel & go t0 d time when I go home for holiday ( yeahhhh ).

Tak tau la, setiap kali exam my obsession 2 something will start. Time ni lah best sngt baca manga, tengok movie, watch Korean drama ( I'm a Kpop fan ), surfing, men gitar etc and d best part is sleep yeahhhh ( love my bed ). Napa yek..And everytime I've got to slap my own head 2 remind myself tht I have an exam. Silly isn't but it's my reality...And kerana obsession itu ( not sure if tht's d right term 4 it ), last minute study la jawapnya....Bila ada masa, terbuang buat bnda x berpekdah pastu time nak exam, pull out all night 2 study d all d stuff I can read days before...I do realize it but just cant stop myself...Patutlah result x penah naik2, rupanya begitu kejadian budak sorang ni ( monolog dalaman mengumpat diri sndiri )..Tiap kali keluar result, kptsan maintain nasib baiklah x turun ( padan muka sndri, sapa srh tak blajar, you could get better marks you know, you got wht you deserve )..

But still I hate EXAM...Why did we have to do one ?( eventhough I know d answer )stupid question. My head fill wit holiday already....Cant I just go home, please? Please ? Please ? ( kneeling position & eyes blinking )..Help me, save me from this torture arrrrrrggggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!.... ( merepek dah plak )

Well, I guest all I have 2 do is study ( and someone who's willing 2 slap my head if I'm not studying . To my fren outhere, please study ( jgn tiru mcm sy ni ), don't do d last minute study ( even though I've master it by now ), stay healthy & yg paling pntg, ask for your parent's blessing & pray for your success. Well got to study y'all..chaow for now XOXO peace for d world.

p/s: sory la, some of d word above mengarut jer. Just getting some stuff I've been thinking lately...Now it's gone ( yeahh )..For those who read this, sory for d mix of language.

My mum is my everything.....Hepi Mama's Day

2011-05-06T09:36:00.000-07:00

Hepi Mama's Day to all of d mother in d world...You are amazing!!!!!!...I want to dedicate this post to my very own mother, love you so so much thousands times. For me, everyday is mama's day, my mum is my mum, she is my very best friends, she is my world & she is my everything. She is amazing...Love her so much.

Its amazing how those women out there can carry this title. I dun know bout d others, but my mum is just amazing (I think I've use d word amazing thousand times already). How she carried my 9 whole month and then plooop, hi it's me out here in d world. Woah can you just think how hard it is. With d morning sickness, health problem & d list go on. I still remember when I was in elementary & secondary school, if there's any pregnant teacher, we tend to avoid making problem with them. We try to minimize any contact with them. Thts becoz they will get so moody sometime & punishment is always waiting for us...Remembering it quite funny actually & miss those naughty time. Anyway, when I think about it , it's pretty exhausting for them to be in school with a baby to be in their belly...Unbelievable.

It's still amaze me tht until this day, when I'm home for d holiday & when I chat with my mum, she always understand wht I'm talking bout. It's not like she's dumb or somthing but I've been away for quite sometime & when I tell all my problem, she always gives advise tht so right with it. She listen to it, understand & then give advise. It's like she's always right beside me. love chatting with her...I can tell anything, from small to big things, feels like she is d only world tht can understand me. Love you so much. I won't trade you for anything. Just with her presence, I feel secure & safe & feel loved. Feel like I want to cuddle with you d whole time.. Am I the only one tht feel tht way, why am I so attach to her..There's nothing wrong with it right...I just love my mum.

Anyway, talking to much already...Just saying Hepi Mama's day, love your mother with all your heart....XOXO

p/s: Syurga itu d telapak kaki ibu

Mat Luthfi_ Awesome You Tuber!!!

2011-05-06T05:23:00.000-07:00

A few days ago, my friend told be bout a series of video in You Tube by Mat Luthfi..And guess wht, it was awesome & I loved it.It was so funny & it just so true.My fav was " bukan semua cantik subjektif "..Yeah thts true. Who said hidung mancung tu cantik, mata sepet tu cute, putih tu cantik & so on...Damn yeah...People keep judging d others & prefer d stereotype beauty..Well I think like tht too becoz of d norm. People in Tv , magazines & so on keep telling tht those people are beauty. I want to be like them.I've grown up with such perception. I think his view is quite interesting & well, he tell d whole world anyway,it is acceptable

Beauty is subjective & we cant tell which one is d real beauty. Betullah mat Luthfi kata yg perangai tu yg menentukan their beauty...cantik luar je klu perangai cam d "S" word buat apa...Inner beauty is eternity. Kecantikan luaran hampeh. Bila umur dah smpi 30, muka dah mcm jln raya tak bertar jer, org tak pndg lg dah..

Anyway, I'm not really want to talk bout beauty but it's bout Mat Luthfi...His video is awesome. Try to a peek on it. Also try Anwar Hadi & Maria Elena but still I prefer Mat Luthfi....Mat Luthfi rockkkkkkk!!!!!!

p/s: Hancur ayat2 kat atas , mix dah melayu ngan Bi, malas nak menaip , so gumenasai.

OMG.....Its my Final year already!!!!!kyaaaaa

2011-05-05T10:18:00.000-07:00

Is it just me or d time really flew tht fast....capital OMG I just realize it tht it's already my final year...by d end of d year, I'll be gone from this institute...woah tht is one serious changes.. I'm gonna be working as a teacher and OMG, am I really tht old already (23 years old). Please can someone tell me this ain't happening. I just feel tht d eighteen me just enter this institute yesterday, and now I'm d super duper senior and I'm going to grad already..You got to be kidding me...Time really flew tht fast....5 years in training and plooppp, it's gone, finish, me.

I still remember as I went home for my first end of year holiday, my aunt will ask how long will I get my degree and I'll said 5 years...their face will stoned & said " That's still a long way to go"...Thts question kept coming for me in second & third year, but this year, things gonna be different. I bet they going to say " You finish already? thts fast"....It's like thts fast & it's already d end...But how come I already those time tht I've spend here...I miss those good memory..sometime I don't want it to end, it's just to good to end..can't I just stay like this forever , never grow up...Guess tht's just a wishful thinking..Being in d outside world frighten me somehow..Am I gonna be Ok or Ko...

Looking at my junior remind me on my junior time here, lots of activity & its keep coming, adventure, d bad & gud memory, d gud lecturer especially PJ lecturer...I miss d old, d new one seem so far away & it's feel like stranger to me...It's hard for me to keep up with them...Well, I think I'm gonna miss my time here....Now for my final year, it's a promise to my self tht I'm gonna make d best memory ever, walk forward & live...I'm just gonna enjoy it as no way I can have such chance again...Wow and me? Ijazah Sarjana Muda Pendidikan dalam Pendidikan Jasmani ...Thts awesome man...Well, I won't hold back anymore..I'll live my life

In pain...just help me..

2011-04-01T21:33:00.000-07:00

kali ni betul la...full blast sakit datang... dah lah senggugut, pastu gusi pd gigi bongsu bengkak lg...seksa....perut sakit, pening , susah nak menelan & its hurt so so much...terasa nak nangis jer...klu takde org nak je meletup kat sofa ni tp cover jg la..masa bengkak gusi sebelum ni tak seteruk ni tp mgkn sbb sy period kali ni tu yg bdn jg sensitif dgn sakit yg lain.. its so awful...tak selesa & i've lot of work left...Ya Allah please dont do this to me..

Sebelum ni, prnh juga sakit yg teruk tp time tu di hostel. Takde roomate, but sakit time tu hebat juga penangannya....bila dah sapu ubat, menyengat sngt sampai menangis-nangis...Sbb tak tahan, paksa juga nak tido..tp tu pun basah bantal sbb nangis..nak tak nak msti tido jg baru lah sakit tu tak rasa..nangis takde org tgk boleh lah tp klu ada org , lain plak..tak nak org ckp mengada, tak jg nak org rasa susah hati & simpati kat kita...biar la kita rasa sakit sndri ....I just need my mommy ...

susah sbnrnya hidup tmpt org ni, sakit takde org nak ambil berat...so tahan jak la...face it by my ownself...

cam skrg ni, I just need my mommy but she's just 2 far from here...i guess i just have 2 keep it all by myself...I'm just so in pain & lonely...k chow 4 now....xoxo

I master myself...in Cutting my own hair....

2011-03-28T04:40:00.000-07:00

You know in my teenager's day, I cut my own hair...yup my own hair..Tht's because I cant seem 2 satisfied with others people's cut....Theres always something wrong with my hair...( B4 I go 2 salon ) I'd ask my sister in law but she just cut on her preference & not wht I asked her 2 do...I'd ask my cousin but it's hurt like hell...So I start 2 cut my own hair...B4 I took hours 2 cut it, in my bedroom as well in the bathroom...Luckily no one ever saw me doing it hehehehe...But I'm not really care bout it coz I'm satisfied with the result...& no regret..Then I start going 2 salon & its seem ok ( I guest )...But wht I hate the most is tht they 2 not really cut my hair ( by the way I'm wearing scarf & I go 2 salon which there's no guys in it )...I know tht I'm not showing it 2 people but I do want a gud haircut. But all the salon that I went cant seem 2 realize it..They just...zuuuuuppppp....just cut it like its not hair...4 example recently, I went 2 have a short haircut & the cut is simple as ever...straight cut around my neck...But the result is not wht I espected, I hate my new hair ( & its expensive too )...My front hair stick out & I hate it

So I decide this morning tht I have 2 do somthing bout it...I'll just cut it on my own..And the result is, well I expected it...I love it...No regret..I seem to master in cutting my own hair ...hehehe now thts wht I'm talking bout...All tht salon should shut down their shop...How can they do tht 2 their costumer..All the costumer is same..We pay you the same ma aiyaaa....Why do you think people who wear scarf doesnt deserve 2 have a nice haircut....Well You just wrong...shame on you...

xoxo

Give me a cash !!!

2011-03-26T06:35:00.000-07:00

Why did money exist in this world...The value of money is just a number but able to affect us tht much..I hate it so much but I really need it so bad...irony right.. Like an annoying body part but just couldnt live without it..Emmm, nowadays life with no money mean you cant step forward in ur life nor in education, fashion as well as your social life...ala pegi tandas pun bayar ma..Hmmm ( ala sakit perut plak )..well I'll continue next time ...ouchhhh got 2 go chaow..xoxo

Please give peace & freedom..I just cant stand it anymore

2011-03-26T04:21:00.000-07:00

I remember there was years in my teenager tht I suffered so much...I've lived in an environment tht totally not condusif 2 grow up..My father with his attitude problem, my brother with his attitude & family problem ( They live with us ), financial problem, my health problem, my other brother's problem & lot more..I'd remember how much I hate my life at tht time so so much..I can stand the rest but the one tht I'd remember the most is my father's attitude problem..At tht time , he just cant stop talking ( He still do it now )about everything..The small to the big thing, the present as well as the past, our family and other people...kind of prejudice 2 other then himself...Just cant stop complaining and the one tht suffered the most is my mother ( and me ). Of course its bring no harm physically but emotionally & mentally, I'd suffered a lot..I'd remember now how I hate it so much in my house & if I think tht time, if there's a place tht I can go, then I will go gladly....I hate all the complaining , all the harsh words..I just want a peace life

Now, it's starts all over again. The thing tht I hate the most...A non-stop talking person is living near me..Now I remembered why I didnt want a roomate, thts becoz I want 2 live a peace life without wasting my life thinking bout the other person's feeling or attitude. But I've got to tell you, this person bring back all my memory as well as the pain to me...

The worst part is, with all the pain & complaining I cant pay it back..Maybe I still trying to be "The gud person"..I hate myself for tht..I just cant talk back to her..I think tht if I do it, she will get hurt or worse, talk bad bout me 2 our friend..But I just cant do it..I really hate myself for tht..please give me a peace life, I just want to live my life..Ya Allah berilah kekuatan, kesabaran dan ketabahan kepada ku dalam menghadapi cabaran hidup. Moga Engkau memberi ketenangan jiwa kepada ku.
AMIN

The depender......Please Try to be independent

2011-03-24T17:39:00.000-07:00

Yosh..gud day everyone...I think i've complained a lot lately ...maybe its the time of the month already ( PMS )..I'm easily getting annoy lately...Is it me or people around me just cant stop doing stuff tht annoy me. I've try to look on the gud side but still my heart exploding with annoying...

I really hate a depender..a person who love to depend on other people...if it was me...i'd felt really ashamed of myself. Its in include the people that cant stop asking other people & doesnt even care about other people's trouble just by helping them ( me ). Cant a person live with their own effort in big thing as well as the littlest thing...Whining on thing, I dont really hate listening to it, but if its too much then thats is a pain in the ass.

For me, a depender is:
A person who depend on other people 2 do their work ( hate it )
A person who is lazy enough even 2 find their own meal & let the other do it( hope you die of hunger )
A person who keep complained on thing & the other have to listen to them ( do you think other people live for you )
A person who use other people 2 get what they want & need ( the worst person alive )
A person who didnt care bout other people's trouble just by helping them ( why dont you just die )
A person who cannot stop whining as if the world exist only for them ( cut the crap )
A person who didnt even consider or think about other people's feeling even though those people is the one who always ( have ) help them.

I think a depender is the worst person alive .Macam peribahasa Melayu tu " HIDUP SEGAN MATI TAK MAHU". I think la kan, being a gud person is hard & annoying. When we just want 2 be nice but those depender took the opportunity to their own benefit..Ah what a life...Jadi baik susah, nak jadi jahat pun susah..

K >E>T>A>W>A

2011-03-24T10:02:00.000-07:00

Astagfirullah...sblm ni sy ada post psl bahaya ketawa, bila dingat-ingat ketawa tu slalu dibuat sampai terbahak-bahak...Astagfirullah moga kita diberi petunjuk..sy tak pernah terfikir pula bnda2 begini boleh menghitamkan hati kita...klu kena autopsi hati sy ni mkin dah hitam legam kerana ketawa shj, tu blm msk dosa2 lain lg. Sama2 la kita bnyk2 kan beristigfar dan ingatkan Allah ..Ketawa, perkara kecil yg kita anggap remeh tp impak pd hati kita amat besar...Sy nak kongsi la ckit bagaimana ketawa menurut Islam ni ...Moga-moga ia menjadi pedoman dan panduan kita dalam menjalani hidup seharian...

KETAWA MENURUT ISLAM

Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda, maksudnya:":Celakalah orang yang berbicara lalu mengarang cerita dusta agar orang lain tertawa. Celakalah !" Riwayat Abu Daud.

Kelakar ialah perbuatan, kata-kata dan sebagainya yang dapat menggembirakan atau yang dapat menggelikan hati orang lain. Sinonimnya ialah jenaka, lawak dan gurau senda. Membuatkan orang lain senang hati adalah termasuk dalam amal kebajikan dan Rasulullah s.a.w juga selalu berjenaka dengan ahli keluarga dan para sahabat baginda.

Namun begitu bergurau mempunyai adab-adab tertentu yang telah digariskan oleh Islam seperti:
a) Tidak menjadikan aspek agama sebagai bahan jenaka seperti mempersendakan sunnah Rasulullah s.a..w .
b) Gurauan tersebut bukan merupakan cacian atau cemuhan seperti memperlekehkan orang lain dengan menyebut kekurangannya.
c) Gurauan itu bukan ghibah (mengumpat) seperti memburukkan seseorang individu dengan niat hendak merendah-rendahkannya.
d) Tidak menjadikan jenaka dan gurauan itu sebagai kebiasaan.
e) Isi jenaka adalah benar dan tidak dibuat- buat.
f) Bersesuaian dengan masa, tempat dan orangnya kerana adalah tidak manis bergurau pada waktu seseorang berada dalam kesedihan dan sebagainya.
g) Menjauhi jenaka yang membuatkan orang lain ketawa secara berlebihan (ketawa terbahak-bahak) kerana banyak ketawa akan memadamkan cahaya hati.

Sesungguhnya Rasulullah s.a.w apabila ketawa baginda hanya menampakkan barisan gigi hadapannya sahaja, bukan ketawa yang berdekah-dekah, mengilai-ngilai atau terkekeh-kekeh dengan maksud bahawa selaku seorang Muslim kita hendaklah sentiasa menjaga batas kesopanan dalam erti kata yang sepatutnya.

Ada riwayat yang menunjukkan bahawa kebanyakan ketawanya adalah dengan tersenyum, dan apabila baginda ketawa, baginda ketawa seperti embun yang dingin. Sementara itu, ada juga riwayat yang menyebutkan bahawa ketawa Rasulullah tidak menunjukkan gigi.

Bagaimanapun, semua perlakuan itu cuma sekadar mengingatkan umat Islam selaku umat pendakwah bahawa gurauan, ketawa itu cuma amalan untuk mengurangi ketegangan jiwa. Saidina Ali k.w juga menyebutkan bahawa sesekali kita perlu bergurau untuk menyebabkan jiwa rasa terhibur. Tetapi, ini tidak bererti kita perlu berhibur secara keterlaluan.

(Sumber: http://www.almunshi.com/am/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=231:kemahiran-guru-kecindan-dan-ketawa-dalam-islam&catid=31:galeri&Itemid=113 )

P/s: Semoga saudara-saudara Islam di luar sana beringat-ingat dalam setiap perbuatan yg kita lakukan...Wallahualam

Goofing Around?...

2011-03-24T09:02:00.003-07:00

Goofing around?...well I do like goofing around but not too much & not all the time...if its too much like " just now ", it kind of annoying..You can call me d serious type of person but I like jokes & goofing around too...but Don't you agree with me ?..Saying & laughing for the small thing thts not funny at all...maybe people like tht think its funny..but the funny thing is others dont laugh at d word tht those people said but the person itself..I pity those people..desperate 2 get attention 2 d extend of make fool of themself...yeah I just got d correct term 4 tht " MAKE A FOOL OF ONESELF TO GET ATTENTION "

Well im not just going 2 say random thing & Nauzubillah ( Moga dijauhkan dari mengumpat )...I'm just telling wht i think & my feeling & Im not talking about anyone ( klu ada yg terasa )..Well I'd like 2 share this as something tht we should always bear in our mind.

Gelak ketawa dilarang Islam. Menurut pandangan Islam, bergelak tertawa adalah tidak baik dan makruh hukumnya. Ibn Mas'ud meriwayatkan dari Auf bin Abdullah bahawa biasanya Rasulullah S.A.W. tidak tertawa melainkan senyum simpul dan tidak suka melerek, iaitu tidak menoleh, kecuali dengan semua wajahnya. Hadis itu menunjukkan bahawa senyum itu sunat dan tertawa berbahak- bahak adalah makruh... .

Gelak ketawa dilarang Islam. Menurut pandangan Islam, bergelak tertawa adalah tidak baik dan makruh hukumnya. Ibn Mas'ud meriwayatkan dari Auf bin Abdullah bahawa biasanya Rasulullah S.A.W. tidak tertawa melainkan senyum simpul dan tidak suka melerek, iaitu tidak menoleh, kecuali dengan semua wajahnya. Hadis itu menunjukkan bahawa senyum itu sunat dan tertawa berbahak- bahak adalah makruh... . Maka itu seseorang yang sihat akal dilarang bergelak tertawa kerana mereka banyak bergelak ketawa di dunia akan banyak menangis di akhirat. Orang yang banyak menangis di dunia mereka akan banyak tertawa di syurga. Menurut Yahya bin Muaadz Ar-razi, ada empat perkara yang menghilangkan tertawa seseorang Mukmin :-

(1) Kerana memikirkan akhirat
(2) Kesibukan mencari keperluan hidup
(3) Risau memikirkan dosa
(4) Apabila tibanya musibah dan bala.

Jika seseorang sibuk memikirkan perkara itu, maka dia tidak banyak tertawa kerana banyak tertawa bukan sifat seorang Mukmin. Seperti yang diriwayatkan oleh Ibn Abbas r.a. "Sesiapa yang tertawa ketika membuat dosa, maka dia akan menangis ketika akan masuk neraka." Dalam satu riwayat yang lain, dikemukakan bahawa Imam Abu Hanifah pernah tertawa satu kali apabila dia menang berdebat dengan Amr bin Abaid Alqadari (seorang bermazhab Qadariah yang tidak percaya kepada takdir Allah). Selepas tertawa, Imam Abu Hanifah sangat menyesal lalu berkata: "Engkau berbicara tentang ilmu, aku tertawa, maka aku tidak akan berkata-kata kepadamu untuk selama-lamanya, maka aku sangat menyesal, sebab andainya aku tidak tertawa nescaya aku dapat menundukkannya dengan kefahamanku, sehingga menjadi kebaikan bagi ilmu." Menurut Islam, sesiapa yang meninggalkan bergelak tertawa akan mendapat darjat yang tinggi di sisi Allah. Sabda Rasulullah S.A.W. yang bermaksud: "Dan siapa yang meninggalkan senda gurau diberi wibawa dan keindahan, dan siapa yang meninggalkan tertawa, maka ia berwibawa dan hebat, dan siapa yang tidak menginginkan kekayaan orang maka ia dicintai." (Hadis Sahih).

Islam juga melarang seseorang melakukan sesuatu atau berkata sesuatu untuk mentertawakan orang lain atau menyebabkan orang lain tertawa.Contohnya ialah seperti berlawak jenaka di mana seseorang akan berlagak dan mengeluarkan kalimah yang menyebabkan orang lain tertawa. Menurut riwayat dari Ibrahim Annakhari beliau berkata: "Adakalanya seseorang mengeluarkan satu kalimah untuk mentertawakan orang di sekitarnya, maka Allah S.W.T. murka padanya lalu murka Allah itu merata kepada orang-orang yang di sekitarnya, yang tertawa bersamanya. Jika seseorang yang berkata kalimah yang direda oleh Allah, maka ia mendapat rahmat dan rahmat Allah itu diperolehi juga oleh orang di sekitarnya." Seseorang yang suka berlawak, berjenaka atau berolok-olok supaya orang lain tertawa, balasannya di akhirat ialah dimasukkan ke neraka "Wail''. Sebagaimana sabda Rasulullah S.A.W. yang bermaksud: "Neraka wail itu buat orang yang bercakap-cakap dengan berdusta dan berolok- olok supaya menimbulkan tertawa pada orang ramai, dan neraka wail itu untuk dia." (Hadis dikeluarkan oleh Imam yang tiga: Riwayat Bahaz bin Hakim).

Dalam Hadis itu Rasulullah S.A.W. mengulang kalimah "neraka wail itu untuk dia" sebanyak dua kali, membuktikan tegas dan kuatnya amaran terhadap orang yang suka bergelak tertawa dan berjenaka. Islam memberi peringatan bahawa semakin kuat hilai dan tertawa seseorang itu, semakin hampir iblis dan syaitan sambil tertawa berbahak-bahak menari-nari untuk melalaikan dia. Maka itu kita perlu awas daripada bergelak tertawa kerana perbuatan itu mengandungi lapan bahaya :-

(1) Dicela oleh ulama dan orang yang sopan serta sempurna akal.
(2) Memberanikan orang bodoh kepada kita.
(3) Jika bodoh akan bertambah kebodohannya, jika alim akan berkurangan ilmunya kerana seorang alim yang tertawa bererti telah memuntahkan ilmunya.
(4) Melupakan dosa-dosa yang lalu.
(5) Melupakan mati dan akhirat.
(6) Berani berbuat dosa kerana apabila tertawa nescaya akan membekukan hati.
(7) Menanggung dosa orang yang tertawa kerana tertawaan kita.
(8) Akan banyak menangis di akhirat.

Sabda Baginda saw : "Banyak ketawa itu mematikan hati dan melalaikan daripada mengingati akhirat dan mempusakai marah dalam hati".
( sumber : http://rezka.multiply.com/journal/item/32 )

P/s: Berilah peringatan sesama rakan

My Teaching Diary ...its " F "

2011-03-22T19:47:00.000-07:00

Today im teaching a class of mine ( 6F , well its "F" )& d topic is shotput ( lontar pluru )..I was just trying to be nice 2 them & hope they can get d same opportunity as d other class in p & P. I've brought d softball's ball 2 replace d real bullet..And guess what, its raining & i hav 2 do my P & P in class only 2 show d technique of shotput...But as usual my thoughtfullness is a waste...there's some of d student give their full attention ( love them ) but just 30 % of them..And the rest, well i dun know what 2 say..

The most shocking thing is that i've asked a stdent 2 demonstrate in front without letting the ball go but in instant, he throw d ball 2 his friend with all his might..And i was juat going 2 call d boy b4 d other friend throw d ball again 2 this boy & hit his back...I'm speechless...If I just didnt think tht im a teacher, i've already throw all d ball to ...I hate tht boy...

Gosh why did i have 2 have student like tht...I know its " F " but i was just trying 2 teach them those skills...

well...need 2 keep my composure & keep d hard work ( ayat pun hancur dah ni )

chaow 4 now...xoxo...

I Am A TeAcHeR To bE...

2011-03-22T08:45:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i really wonder whether my decision 2 be a teacher is right...even now ( final year ) that question still running through my head...mmmmm can i believe that the nature of an educator runs through my vein ( woah what a sentence )..sometime i really doubt tht. When my students start doing d 'abnormal attitude' and i seem 2 lost it, i start 2 think maybe i really dont have "IT" inside me..

Now i'm having my last practicum and i dun know why & how i get d naughtiest student of all in d whole world..I felt like i want 2 throw them out of the building or maybe tie them up in the tree or triple kick ..i dun know ..anything...i am so so annoy...

well, b4 i start 2 imagining thing , I suppose i tell a little bit story of my beloved student...They r naughty, lousy etc...word mean nothing 2 them...talking 2 them makes me like a standing tree talking all by myself..they dont even listen and punishment ....OMG they fear nothing...I'am losing myself & when i get stress, harsh word & action might possess me and all the thing i shouldnt do...

I am trying 2 be a gud teacher but im just a normal person..I wonder how d senior teacher can survive all the time...Teaching knowledge is one thing but educating people is d hardest & toughest thing in the whole World ( my world ).Especially when u get student like mine....

I really hope ( truly hope ) i can overcome this obstacle and become a gud & patient teacher ( im having class with them 2morrow )....May everyday will be my lucky day & I bcome stronger everyday ( Amin )

p/s: The title " TEACHER " is sometime too much 4 me 2 handle...well "Teacher To be " 2 be exact...

All the thing she said.....Running through my head

2011-03-21T21:44:00.001-07:00

( Gambar Hiasan semata2 )

I got 2 say that I'm jealous wit beautiful girl ( like in d pic & love sunny SNSD so so much )....tell me i'd lie if i say women do not jealous of other pretty girl... especially when i watch korea's program...Keep me wondering why they look so much pretty and cute ...i try 2 take some cute pic but left me disgust with myself ( like ewwww its that me )Well i hate this feeling that often occur 2 me......emmmm....inconfidence in myself...am i that not pretty....well i left myself that question 2 answer later

chauw 4 now...xoxo

Feeling?.....hmmm MIX....

2011-03-21T20:31:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since i write anything in my poor blog...i guess there's a lot of workload for me since its my final year ( yeah)...I'm doing my last 3 month practicum now and i seem 2 be doing just fine ( i guess )...But its too much work to do and too little time 2 finish it...I still need 2 do my Lesson Plan, my 2 project, AR ( have 2 change d topic again ), my observation and the worst is not having money in my pocket as well as my account ( zero already )...Its s0 like I'm tired mentally and physically....I really need something 2 cheer my life up....maybe book allowance ( still waiting earnestly ) or maybe a boyfriend ? XD

Well, i hope everything going to be just fine and everything went well more than i expected....I really wish i can travel right now....Maybe Bandung , Indon ( end of year plan ) or Seoul, korea or maybe Ghuangzhou, China...hehehehe....still have 2 wait though...

Guess chaow for now....XOXO

Busy?...naaah typicall

2010-10-11T10:42:00.000-07:00

Sorry ive been away for a few day...mostly becoz im a little busy with PJ Suaian ( Last week), Kejohanan Olahraga Amatur malaysia ( KOAM ) exam last saturday, and monday , i have BIG Phase6 in SK Bandar 2 Tawau. So its been quite a busy week for me as well as for my friend. The heat will continue today with test for Pengukuran & Penilaian PJ, Wednesday For BIG ( again ), Thursday & Friday for PJS and Sunday For abseiling & Flying fox. Woooow...this is an amaing week...fill with lot and lot of work ..And thats is not include regular class and night class.. I cant imagine how i will manage my self and my work....But I will somehow ( i guess ). Human can really possess such powerfull energy for that thing....And again wooowww....

Actually with those activities going on, i still have time to watch movie with my friends in my room ( Horror movie ), and i thinks thats is the only time i can really relax and rest ( eventhough its 10.00 o'clock at night ).. Anyway i come to a concept or may i say phrase in the movie that i remember....strength come from the way you think...am i right? ....when you think that you cant do it, then initially your body start to respond as well as your nerve that it is something impossible for you....but when you bear in mind that you can always do it or you can do anything, possibility or miracle can appear....it is more exact for me to say HIPNOSIS....

I really want write more but my eyes keep trying to shut off by its own ....i guess i write more bout Hipnosis later....maybe by doing hipnosis, world can be a better place. Dont you think?....well lets think bout it

HALLYU WAVE? Korean Artist Fever and it hit right on me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-10-07T06:14:00.000-07:00

Guys...Its kind of new to me either but gosh when you get stuck in the wave, you just cant get yourself out. Its KPOP fever and its so addicting. I guess i just cant restrain my self from telling you how i got in this mess. About a year ago, by a chance i switch to a channel in ASTRO. Channel 303 ( now 391 )provide information, show and drama in Korea. Im not really into it coz at that time, im more into Japan's Drama. But i try to watch one of their variety show ( coz its late at night and the only things in Tv is news )and BOOM!!!!! It stuck right into me. The show is totally funny and you know, thing just drag on. At that time, i dont really know much about their artist but now i know a lot ( i guess ). Im not really into drama but mostly on the Kpop group and variety show. Because of limitations of show appear in TV, i can only watch show shown in KBS but then YOUTUBE help too.

This is the list of show i often wtch now:
1Days 2 Night ( Friday night)
Happy Together ( Thursday night )
Invincible Youth ( Tuesday Evening )
Lets go Dream Team Season 2 ( Wednesday Evening )
Star Golden Bell Challenge ( Wednesday night but currently no show shown lately )

This is some of the KPOP famous Group right now:

FT ISLAND ( my fav member: Lee Hongki )

T'ARA ( My Fav member: Hyomin )

KARA ( my fav member: Goo hara )

SUPER JUNIOR ( My fav member: Eunhyuk the dancing machine )

GIRLS GENERATION AKA SNSD ( My fav member: Sunny the agyeo queen )

Thats just some of the famous group now and there is more but i guess thats all for now. Ill put more info bout them later co i need to study for my exam the day after tomorrow. Surf bout them if you want to know more . Well chow for now....

I AM TOTALLY BACK......................HERE I COME kYAahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-10-06T06:22:00.001-07:00

Hiiiiii guysssss,
it been a long time eh....
lama tak buka blog ni & put some new entry but rest assure coz im totally back & ready to buzz my blog.
Hope you guys will patiently start reading my blog from now on...
Fighting for me xoxo hehehe Gossip Girl....nah im not gossip girl just some word i remember bluntly.....k i guest thats all
so lame of me....hehehe just want to announce my COMEBACK to the BLOG WORLD......yeahhhh

Escaping North Korea.....Documentary of survival

2009-11-25T05:47:00.000-08:00

I watch this documentary in one of discovery channel..It was a heart throbbing documentary. It show how north korean people escape from their country to China then travel to Laos and Thailand to get to North Korean embassy just to get Political protection. I respect their courage to get a better life and got through a terrible long journey. I still remember the only children in that journey, Min Chul 10 years old, and the oldest, an old lady 65 years old. I know this is kind of boring for those who didnt watch it yet but, i recommend it for all of you. Its a real life journey , a tough one to get a better life in a place you didnt know. Determination of those who suffer in their old country coz them to travel thousand of kilometre. Through the Laos border and Thailand border, its ever been easy. That documentary is one of the group that manage to succeed their journey. Its an awesome documentary, you guys should watch it.

Life..theres still more to see

2009-11-25T05:21:00.000-08:00

I must admit it that before i went to study in ipgm, my point of view kin of narrow. it just that things only go round around me. I never knew what is happening out there until then, my unexpected opportunity came. My acceptance to IPGM was a miracle. Its open my view to a wider one. I realize that world is too big and we never get tired of it. And for me, i hope that i get a change to travel that big world someday. Maybe a change in a lifetime.

Anyway, theres nothing impossible in this world. I believe in that as long as try. Theres no harm in planning coz we never know that it might work out. So my long term ambition, travel to places as many as you can go.

One way to catch up with that ambition right now is by mass media such as Discovery Channel. I must say this that such channel help you cope with what happen out there, before, now and maybe the future. Places, technology, history and life. Ive never expected what and how people cope with their life everyday. Some are tough that i can never imagine if i were there, some are very exciting and i wish i could be there to fell it too. The more you see, the wider your view. Dont stop your life at this stage, live your life, theres too much thing to do. Put your goal and try to achieve it. In the end, theres no regret.

China Badminton Super Series....awesome game !!!!!

2009-11-25T05:15:00.000-08:00

22 November 2009

Mix double’s final
Korea vs china
Amazing game, I can say that. I really admire that China team have that strategy to win the game although they’re not. The Korea couple show good games spirit. I kind of confussed in the beginning what their strategy becoz they played kind of messy, but its still work out. Maybe that’s their strategy. Equal between the man and woman. That is the first thing I saw in that game coz mostly the woman in mix double doesn’t really good and the man need to play more. But I guess this is world games right. Everyone must have the skill to win the whole thing. Well, they show really an amazing game back there. Result= Korea win

Men’s Final
Lin Dan vs Jorgensen Jan
1st of all,Jorgensen is cute.For my own view, Jorgensen kind of follow Lin D’s ryhtm eventhough he have the change to win. It’s just that Lin D strategy in attack is fast counter attack. J really has the opportunity to do payback. Do mistake and you lose point. But I must admit, Lin D is really fast in counter attack. Amazing jumping smash as well as strategy you can see in that game. Lin D looks like JUST playing and suddenly BOOM, whether it 90km/s smash or amazing drop.It felt that he have the full stamina, runing and smashing at the same time.But as I mention before, Jorgensen have the opportunity with his height and stamina but still, something wrong. Something that he do not have and Lin D have it..At the very beginning, it felt like one-sided game where Lin D led the whole game and Jorgensen just the follower. I cannot deny that Lin d have the best stamina, technique and strategy to win the whole game. So ,in the end, the results is just too predictable. I actually hope that Jorgensen will rise and defeat Lin D, but its just too pity. But still good effort though.Result = Lin D win with 21-12 ,12-21.

Woman double’s final
China vs China
Aggresif player and active game. Full of fast smash and fast movement. I really admire china team coz they have like a hundred player and all of them have the best skill. Red team show more aggresif movement though. Result = china Qing Tian / Yaewen win 21-14, 14-21

Man double’s final
Msia ( Tan bon Heong,Koo kian kiat) vs Korea ( Lee Yong dae, Jung J S )
There’s no word can describe the game the played. Awesome, amazing and incredible. Full of excitement and I cant help trembilng all the way. I must say our Malaysian man double Badminton Player has show true showmanship in their game. Great skills. Eventhough they lose the game, for me they are the winner. The true winner of the game…2 crucial point to get to the rubber set and that’s so awesome performance. I believe they can do better. One thing that I really admire about the korean player is they actually did smash all the way and most of the time. Most of the point they got were actually come from smash. Anyway, Tan Boon Heong and Koo kien Kiat is the new hero of Malaysia other than Lee Chong Wei....I believe Malaysia can win this thing in no time…..GO GO MALAYSIA……

My first step to fotography.....Subjek: Semporna

2009-10-31T03:31:00.001-07:00

Ow this is my first step to take better shot.Hope it work out.Im not really sure what technique im using but it does work out. Anybody please give comment to this picture. I take all of it when we visited Semporna for TMK course using my new camera, canon IXUS 9515.Kind of good feeling though,taking nice picture. Im still in progress for exploring my new camera, so the picture that i take still you call amature. I am hoping to be a better camerawomen by the time i buy SLR camera ( not really sure when ).Im trying multiple technique of taking picture but....still something wrong in my side...Well hope ill catch up with other fotographer ( my friend ). Then wish me luck then....

p/s: Hope ill manage to buy SLR camera before the 2010 end

Are they really exist??????

2009-10-29T10:09:00.000-07:00

Are they really exist?..People who cannot give commitment at any situation? People who keep irritate people in any type of way ?..People who don't realize how lucky they are?..Then they should just demolish from this earth..In my entire life, this is the time where i see and found such kind of people..Do nothing but become burden to people not due to any disabilities but attitude.People attitude can be change but this kind of people cannot be change in any way ,but hanging and beating them like a child maybe work.I have seen this people.Ungrateful people ,not one person but a group of people. No words can describe their attitude. Their place maybe worst than lazy or >>>>>>..

You guys maybe wonder why did i keep saying things but ive just found a pack of people who should not let out in public but in locked room forever. Its the kind of people that can kill you in inside. they build up my stress over the highest level i ever felt in my life...The stress surpass assignment stress or other..I know, they really can do that.Maybe that is their specialty. My stress almost cause me to frontkick my door,slam my laptop and worst, maybe i end up hurting some one. the stress they cause have that great effect on me.I wish i can stab them in my sleep tonight and have better day tomorrow.No stress and no nothing .They just a nuisance..Let tomorrow be a good day for me...

Every child is special!!!!!

2009-10-29T09:37:00.000-07:00

I cant believe i actually say this but I LOVE THIS MOVIE!!!!! Its a very good movie for motivation for a teacher to be.It inspire me a lot..I just watched this movie because my friend recommend it and said that its a very good movie and its turn out to be true..Its awesome. Its a story about a boy who is disleksia ( learning disability but can be train 2 get better),and the family dont understand and send him to boarding school.The boy get depress and Aamir khan came and save him through his brilliant method in teaching.

Im kind of irritated with the boy at the beginning but things started to sad...So in the end, i end up crying most of the time while watching this movie.Its sad when your own family dont know you and dont want to try understand you.This movie cause teardrops in my laptop.Its a sad movie yet motivate.Im kinda fall in love with Aamir khan for the second time. I love his character. i wish i can be a teacher as dedicate as him in real life, changing my students life to a better one, to a brighter future. Well, anyway you guys should watch this movie too. It is one of Hindi movie that i can salute for having meaningful motive.

p/s : and prepare a lot of tissue

Microteaching...Afterward

2009-10-16T09:54:00.000-07:00

Ive done it...it so tiring...so tired of it.feels like i want 2 kill all my classmate.Why can they behave like a good kid..If it happen when im teaching in school, can i bite one of them?...they dont even heard what im talking bout.They keep saying that they are bored with my teaching..How could them? no, how dare them said that?...You guys wait aaa , im gonna take revenge on you guys, revenge of the fallen.Wait 4 your turn 4 micro.You are dead. It is not that simple. Then it slip in my mind that before i got here, people keep saying that being a teacher is simple and i think the same thing. But as soon you know and study about it, felt like yelling those people out there , YOU GOT TO BE KIDDING ME..ITS SOOO HARD THAN ANYTHING ELSE

For me, everything is hard in this world whatever profession that you desire to go, but becoming a teacher is hard.Asignment? absolutely..Physically it is somthing obvious, ready for it. But mentally? Do you prepare for it?.. It keep bothering me that im going to teach people not only the knowledge but moral too. Develop human being.That sound hard for me..I never thought bout it before, but its keep coming to me right now. What if i make a mistake ?Teaching somthing i should not to.Hope no.Ill try hard on that part..wish me luck then

p/s: Thank god i never pull a prank on any of my teacher, and if i did ,i think im the worse

Crazier and crazier.....

2009-10-16T09:43:00.000-07:00

I crazier over this song..love it soo much.In fact i all of Taylor swift's song.Feels like im looking for this kind of song like forever...especially the country genre...its killing me..aaaahhhhh.....love it

Taylor swift:
You belong with me
stay beautiful
Our song
white horse
crazier
teardrops on my guitar
The way i love you

What the>>>>>

2009-10-16T08:41:00.000-07:00

Hii...sory to my lovely blog that i rarely write post 2 it...you know ive been quite busy with life lately and honestly sometimes i forget that i have blog..well i guest ive will start 2 write in here...hopefully..

Any way i have something in my mind...I want to ask you somthing...Have you guys ever been in a situation where you have to work in group, especialy with boy...Then you start and you told them what you guys have to do and you start planning without them ever involve.Then you plan and ask them to do somthing like discussion or making somthing together. Anyway the main point here is they never get involve or ask anything or more precise, no commitment!!!! wow that a very long explanantion.

i have been so irritate lately with that kind of human living thing...I wish i could say , just die then but that is so cruel even for me.But nobody cant stand for that kind of attitude..no commitment and no nothing...But this time is real..I will never help them for this...enough is enough.They can say im cruel or anything but it is not my fault...I told them, i remind them like forever, i called them like crazy..it is agroup work you know...if they ask me later im gonna say..HUKUM KARMA man!!!!!!Remember that thing...You do bad thing and it come after you later...you do good thing and good thing come after you later....People can easily say somthing like im not helping them if they the one who planning it but they never help other..than its fair if i say just die...i felt so much irritated and annoying and can i punch someone for real then? Ive been practising it now, maybe it can come handy later...i guess so..

Well i hope the peolpe im talking about just know get what we call "HIDAYAH" in work..I just realize that i hate them soo much..I wish i could be a pure heart person but with them in this world it is just impossible...what can i do....i hope i can find a word to describe those people...

p/s: life is hard but people tend to make it harder with purpose

DUH ....MICROTEACHING LA...

2009-10-05T02:46:00.003-07:00

salam....tak sangka ya ingat punya ingat, dah lama saya belajar kat IPGM ni. Sem depan dah nak pergi mengajar dah...Tak sangka...Dah separuh jalan dah..mengajar satu hal, ni nak buat microteaching plak..tak tau la ni...nak kata boleh tu boleh tapi outcome & income tu, camne? Kata bagus tak jugak, kata buruk tak jugak...yela studentnya kawan-kawan juga..Tu belum test power ngan budak real ni..kawan-kawan bolehlah, suruh buat tu, buat kan dah besar panjang. Dah faham pun, kadang-kadang dorang plak yang suggest ngan komen benda tu tak sesuai ke tidak...Tapi tetap tak sama..Buat RPH lagi, mampus..Dahlah saya ni bingung-bingung sikit...Tapi pa pun , semoga semuanya berjalan ngan baik.Buat yang terbaik jer time ngajar nanti. Jangan fikir kena observe saja tapi budak faham ke tak faham tidak dipeduli...All the best to me & myfriend..

Refleksi Diri....Muhasabah Diri.....

2009-08-29T16:49:00.000-07:00

Hari tu ada la saya baca email dari group yang saya join...kata-kata nya betul-betul menyentuh hati dan membuat saya terfikir yang kadang kala kita sangka yang kita ni dah bagus dan baik dengan orang sedang kan orang sekeliling menganggap yang sebaliknya...oleh itu sama-sama la kita kongsi renungan ini dalam kita memperbaiki diri kita...

1. Ada antara kita datang ke pejabat hanya memenuhi tanggungjawab 'DATANG BEKERJA' tapi hampa,
hasilnya macam kita ' TAK DATANG' kerja

2. Ada kala kita rasa kita BUSY giler, rupanya kita hanya 'KELAM KABUT' .

3. Adakala kita rasa kita PRIHATIN , tapi rupanya kita BUSY BODY.

4. Adakala kita rasa kita OPENMINDED and OUTSPOKEN tapi rupanya kita KURANG PENGAJAR'AN.

5. Adakala kita rasa kita berpemikiran KRITIS , rupanya kita hanya lebih kepada
KRITIK yang mencipta KRISIS .

6. Adakala kita rasa kita ingin menjadi LEBIH MESRA tapi rupanya kita di lihat lebih MENGADA-NGADA .

7. Adakala kita suka bertanya 'KENAPA DIA NI MCM TAKDE KEJE', adalah lebih baik kita tanya
'APA LAGI KEJE YANG AKU BOLEH BUAT ?'

8. Adakala kita rasa kita ni pekerja yang SEMPURNA,BAIK DAN BERDEDIKASI tapi cuba tengok dalam-dalam, selagi hati kita berdengki, jatuhkan reputasi sesama rakan sekerja (report kat bos kawan kita tak bagus dari kita) dan tak amanah (mencuri dan tak siapkan kerja),kita sebenarnya patut terima hakikat betapa kita lebih teruk dari anggapan kita itu sendiri.

Pejam mata dan renung lah diri, kalau kita perlu melakukan ANJAKAN PARADIGMA, maka lakukanlah segera...tapi manusia tetap manusia... sukar untuk berubah kerana kita selalu beranggapan kita lebih baik... adakah dengan merasakan itu kita sememangnya terbaik?

"Mengkritik tidak bererti menentang,
Menyetujui tidak semestinya menyokong,
Menegur tidak bermakna membenci,
dan berbeza pendapat adalah kawan berfikir yang baik."

p/s : kata-kata ni saya ambil dari ..jadi renunglah diri kita sendiri

Backdated Sukaneka Hari Guru

2009-07-17T23:49:00.000-07:00

Yosh......
Saya dah lama nak tulis pasal Sukenaka sempena Hari Guru ni sebenarnya, akan tetapi biasalah sibuk sampai terlupa...Walaupun dah lepas tapi pengalaman dalam sukaneka ni betul-betul tidak boleh dilupakan.
Sukaneka ini diadakan sempena sambutan Hari Guru dan ia dibuat dalam bentuk stesen-stesen yang mana setiap stesen itu ada aktiviti yang berbeza-beza. Saya telah ditugaskan untuk menjaga stesen ' Panjangnya Tali' yang mana peserta mesti membuat satu rantaian panjang menggunakan apa saja cara. Kumpulan peserta yang berjaya menbuat rantaian yang terpanjang akan menjadi pemenang. Dan kerana hal ini, hampir-hampir saya dapat trauma. ini kerana sepanjang berlangsungnya sukaneka ini peserta yang datang ke stesen saya kebanyakannya terlalu excited, terlalu bersemangant sampaikan boleh naik gila dibuatnya. Nasib baik la saya ni kuat semangat kalau tidak, dah ada yang di bawa pergi hospital ni. Bukan la nak cakap bersemangat tu tidak baik tapi hari itu memang menakutkan buat saya.Dan itu sememangnya satu pengalaman yang teramat baru buat saya.

p/s : Yang pastinya saya tidak akan menjaga sebarang stesen lagi. Pengsan saya dibuatnya.

pink color ka

2009-07-17T23:14:00.000-07:00

salam semua,
Hi semua, kali ni saya nak kongsi dengan korang semua hasil tangan saya yang seterusnya iaitu manik pink color. Sebenarnya masa saya jahit manik ni ,tak rancang pun. Cuma ari tu tak tau napa tiba-tiba saja perasaan 'mesti menjahit manik' tu datang membuak-buak sampai tak tertahan walaupun sebenarnya kerja ku bertimbun sampai bilik penuh dengan kertas-kertas dan yang sewaktu dengannya.Nasib baik la saya ni tak ada roomate, kalau ada mungkin dah hilang ditelan kertas-kertas itu.
Baiklah, idea dan rekaan manik yang saya buat kali ni tak susah dan cuma yang simple-simple saja. Ni semua adalah kerana ilham tu terus datang dan tangan saya pun dengan cepat nya terus menjahit sampaikan otak saya tidak sempat memikirkan rekaan yang lain. oleh itu, rekaan manik kali ni hanya mengambil masa kurang dari 2 jam untuk disiapkan. walaupun begitu, saya puas hati dengan hasilnya. Nampak cantik dan elegan ( saya rasa la). ok check it out

ok, kalau ada kelapangan saya akan jahit baju lain lagi. Jadi sudi-sudikan la diri memberikan komen mengenai hasil kerja tangan saya.

IM A MANGA FAN!!! Yosh!!!!!!!!

2009-06-17T05:09:00.000-07:00

Yosh!!! Ari ni saya nak kongsi ngan semua mengenai satu hobi saya iaitu membaca komik...Dulu saya suka tengok kartun kat tv jer, ala kartun2 cam sailormoon tu ngan Dragon Ball..dulu famous kan kat tv ( mana ada astro dulu ). Tapi sejak kawan kat sekolah menengah dulu bagi baca komik Kreko, dari sana la saya ketagih ngan komik ni..Sekarang ni dah macam2 dah komik saya baca tapi kebanyakannya adalah manga Jepun la.. Jalan ceritanya hebat tau tapi yang tak bestnya bila ada manga yang belum lagi habis2 cam Naruto..Tension juga time tunggu episod baru..

Saya ni boleh kira peminat giler manga juga la sampaikan saya dah label dah kartun ngan Gred2 dia. Dari Gred A ke Gred D...Bukannya manga Gred D tu tak bagus tapi lebih pada manga yang jarang2 saya nampak jenis lukisannya...kira yang unik la...
Ni nak bagi nasihat sikit la dengan kawan2 yang baru nak mula membaca manga ni, sila lihat genre manga yang anda hendak baca. Yelah kadang2 kalau baca internet ni kan takde tapis2...so jauhi genre ADULT dan MATURE..Tak baik untuk mata hati.

Ok saya nak share sikit manga-manga yang saya dah baca dan tengah baca sekarang ni...This is the list:
Asklepios
Karakuri Circus
Kekkaishi
Tribal 12
Fairy Tail
Naruto
Bleach
7 Seeds
Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro
666 Satan
Historys Strongest Disciple
Bloody Kiss
Blue Dragon - RAL GRADO
Full Metal Alchemist
Future Diary
Eyeshield 21
Kamen Teacher
La Corda Doro
One Piece
Sky High
Sky High Karma
Angelic Layer

Ni baru sebahagian jer yang saya dah baca dan on da way baca...banyak lagi tapi dah lupa lah plak..Sekarang tengah eksplore manga baru ni...Kalau ada manga yang best please suggest la yer...oh ya ...site yang selalu saya masuk adalah Onemanga.com dengan Manga Fox.....

Ni baru intro je ni tapi malas la pula nak tambah ...k lain kali saya akan tambah info pasal manga kegemaran saya...chow dlu...

Mari Melancong!!!! MESILAU NATURE RESORT

2009-06-17T04:19:00.000-07:00

Apa khabar semua..Ari ni nak cerita sikit la pasal tempat yang saya jalan2 cuti midsem ni. Ala tempat yang saya pergi ni bukan la jauh sangat, dekat je dengan Kundasang. Tempat ni kat Mesilau Nature Resort. Perjalanan pergi ke tempat ni ambil masa lebih kurang 30 ke 45 minit dari Kundasang. Pehh hebat jugak perjalanannya tau..Jalannya berbukit ngan lereng ( kyaa )...Kalau tak biasa menakutkan juga la. Nasib baik la kami naik 4 wheel ari tu..maklum la kakak saya baru beli kereta baru (Navara)..Kira test power la tu..Walaupun begitu pemandangannya begitu cantik dan menarik sekali..Antara tempat yang kami lewati antaranya ialah Desa Cattle, Kampung Mesilau dll.

It is really an awesome view. Beautiful panorama along the way. I dont really remember how we come up with the idea to go to this place anyway. But it is not a waste because the view is just spectacular. As soon as we arrived, the panorama caught my attention. I think the most important attraction here is the nature. Im a nature lover so its kind of mesmerized me a lot. So I dont know about the other opinion. That place is just full of nature.

Mesilau Nature Resort ialah tempat selain Kinabalu park untuk kita memulakan perjalanan mendaki Gunung Kinabalu. Tapi kalau ikut jalan kat sini ambil masa lama sikit la,lebih kurang 5 km, lebih 2km kalau ikut jalan di Kinabalu Park. Apa pun it is a nice place. Saya bercadang nak naik Gunung Kinabalu tahun ni tapi belum pasti lagi. Tengoklah macam mana...Tapi jangan risau kerana sekiranya rancangan saya ni jadi, saya akan menulisnya di blog saya untuk tatapan bersama...Wish me luck ye...Kalau nak, boleh join sekali...jom mendaki!!!!!!!!

The Wedding..

2009-06-13T06:43:00.000-07:00

Masa cuti ari tu saya ada la pergi kat satu majlis kahwin kat kampung…Masa first sampai tu, baru la saya terfikir napa la saya ikut skali..Its felt so odd..Tp fikir2 lg why not, skali skala kan.

It was nice and served appetizing food too.. Cuma cuaca agak berangin sikit…Satu benda yg tak boleh dipisahkan daripada perkahwinan orang dusun ialah menyanyi dengan menarinya…confom mesti ada…tak tau la klu komuniti orang dusun kat tempat lain tapi kat kampung saya, kira cam kemestian dah…Mesti ada band pastu orang yang pergi menyanyi tu hampir semuanya orang yang berusia..I guess its like a custom for them..klu dah ada orang yang menyanyi mesti ada yang menari, especially lagu2 dusun…Dan penarinya ..emm no komen la..Nasib baik la ibu ku yang tercinta tak pergi join sekali klu ya I think im gonna wait in the car till we go home…Tak tau la kebelakangan ni suka plak dia join benda2 gini..

Pelaminnya cantik jugak..Nice decoration but personally it’s a little plain ( Jangan ambil hati plak ye )..They use only one colour and with butterfly on it..Well, so much for my comment..I hope the newly married couple will live happily ever after…

Ni nak buat selingan sikit la ye

Ari tu ada la sy tgk ‘Chinese singing show’ kat 8TV..Ala rancangan Ultimate Power Group tu ( ele sebenarnya sy pun tak tau, kebetulan jak tgk ari tu )..Tu rancangan menyanyi special tuk Chinese but I think we really should give them a credit for that… It awesome ( walaupun sy tak faham apa dia ckp ), secara kasarnya the performance its really interesting…ari tu final, ada 3 group Will Star Boys, Ya tou dan Friendz..Nice outfit you know..and nice hair..Pastu ada satu group penyanyi lelaki jemputan and their song ….emmm…sound good ( I guess ) with their incredible dance..Tapi yg paling sy tak boleh lupa ialah peminat kat stadium…wow..They really can screamed for 2 and a half hour non-stop..sokongan yg betul-betul padu…gud for them..dan akhirnya group Friendz menang…

Well I guess sometime its good to peek out Chinese show…klu tak faham pun, agak-agak je la apa maksudnya..But if the artist is good looking, why not ( just kidding )..Any way, support our music industry even though they are Chinese..Beside, we are one Malaysia …

BEAD MADNESS

2009-05-24T20:53:00.000-07:00

Its been a crazy week...crazy exam week...its not just the exam but im the craziest person alive...how come an exam week fill wit sewing bead??

see 4 urself the outcome of my work.

Its my first artwork of bead..i think it pretty cool...yeah...I thought i want2 create somting fancy..somting coolest but in the end, im still a beginner. I need 2 learn more 2 get a better outcome. But still, im proud of my work. It is not easy 2 come up wit this design..i have 2 try it practically and if my " baju kurung " is alive, i bet she already dead by the time i finished..it need lot of patient and of course, motivation...And certainly my motivater would be the exam...its killing me till i have 2 do somting other than study...( Tq exam ).

I want 2 talk about the design a little bit...Like i said , i want to create somting you can call bombastic ( ive always love that word ), but in the end, its so hard...its really can stress you out...As a beginner, here a few tips for you if you want 2 start beading...

1. Buy different shape and color of bead . It really help you when you run out of idea.
2. Pick the right color and right strength of thread
3. choose and design pattern of bead you want 2 make according 2 your clothes pattern. Dont simply do a design that look weird wit your BJ..
4. When doing your bead, no need to try so hard 2 make a complicated design...somtime simple is much better...the concept is the same when you design a graphic in photoshop, dont put all of your idea there cause it'll look crowded than looks beautiful.
5. Dont afraid to make a first step, of course your first bead may look terrible, but you will improve somehow..
6. The last but not least, gud luck...

Doing somting like this, actually is a way 2 release your stress on study. Boy should consider this too..Doesnt matter bout your gender, try it. Maybe you are more talented than us...

Can't wait to make another...When you already start it, it surely tempt you a lot...But i cant cause its y exam week...stupid me..But try it, its a good thing to do.

And for me, study !!!!!! im coming!!!!!!! kyaaaaaaa..........

Friend + ship = Friendship...

2009-05-19T03:31:00.000-07:00

FRIENDSHIP..
what is this word mean 2 you?...
ive always think about this ..friendship ...u need it in ur life. no matter where you are.but do u have the real friend , best friend that u can mention bout this word?...friend that u can rely on, always there when u need them, someone that u can talk bout anything?...not just someone who only talk bout themself but wouldnt listen when u want 2 talk bout ur self?

Realitinya...
jika ada org yg tanya kan soalan ini pada anda, apa yang akan anda jawab? sy bukan nak berfalsafah tp 2 la lumrah kehidupan..bila kta ingat kawan yang kta cari ada di depan mata, sebenarnya hanya anda yang seolah-olah tkejar-kejar utk berkawan dengannya..orang yang akan tinggalkan anda apabila kawan itu sudah brtemu rakan yg lebih baik daripada anda...ataupun selama ini anda hanyalah sandaran semata2...( ni blm msk bab psl boyfriend2 lg ni )..tak tau la psl korang...tp kes ni memang slalu ada pnya..

Bila anda sedar..
u never have that kind of friend...
kawan yang anda kenal hanya "Kawan" semata-mata...
friendship and friend is different
tidak salah klu sy katakan mungkin kawan yg anda punyai itu hanya boleh dipanggil sbg kenalan shj.....

tell me..
list it...
count it...
how many friend do u can categorize in this friendship thing
not just friend that u know

bukankah persahabatan itu mengenai mengenali kawan kta, mengetahui perkara berkaitan mereka?
bukan nya sekadar kawan apabila ada tujuan sahaja..
if so..
i dare 2 say
itu cuma kawan biasa sahaja, jgn panggilnya " friendship'

sorry la yek...
sy ni klu sdh merepek, mcm-mcm yg ditulis
mostly bila sy tfikir psl satu benda tu, sy akan cuba luahkannya bukan sahaja dr point of view sy semata-mata, tp secara umum, sy cuba ambil kira pendapat orang jg..
klu psl nak masuk fakta 2, sy ni mls ckit psl fakta-fakta ni
tp dah namanya blog, luahan pendapat semata-mata
klu tak puas hati komen la ye
tp fikirla ..anda di golongan mana?

MoTiVaTe uRsELf ToDaY

2009-05-11T07:52:00.000-07:00

Sy tak tau mcm mana org blh tfikir cipta ayat-ayat memotivasikan ni...hebat juga kan...buat org jeles jer tp kebaikannya kita blh gunanya utk diri kita sendiri..Terutama bila kita mula hilang arah tujuan...so cni sy nak share ckit la kata2 motivasi yg cool....enjoy!!!!

" The Future is there ahead for those that take it " - Eleanor Roosevelt -

" To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream " - Anatole France -

" If you don't know where you are going, you might wind up somewhere else " - Yogi Berra -

" To fail to plan is to plan to fail " - Benjamin Franklin -

" Without goals and plans to reach them, you are like a ship that has set sail with no destination " - Fitzhugh Dodson -

" You don't have to be great to get going, but you have to get going to be great " - Les Brown -

" You've got to believe in yourself, the sooner you'll be able to reach your goal " - Florence Griffith Joyner -

" You must first visualize yourself as a success in order to be a success " - Rosa Diaz -

" Its always more meaningful and wonderful when you can share your goals and your life with others. Great friends and family are key " - Missy Giove -

" No matter what accomplishments you achieve, somebody helps you " - Althea Gibson -

" Before you begin a thing, remind yourself that difficulties and delays quite impossible to foresee are ahead. If you could see them clearly, naturally you could do a great deal to get rid of them , but you can't. You can only see one thing clearly and that is your goal. Form a mental vision of that and cling to it through thick and thin " - Kathleen Norris -

Sy pun ada ayat motivasi yg sy cipta sendiri . Ayat yg sy sentiasa ingat especially bila sy sakit hati ngan org..
" Open your heart, touch your soul, forgive other and ask yourself why must you get mad, we are only human "

Fikir-fikir la yer...

WeLcOmE...

2009-05-10T18:51:00.000-07:00

SALAM>>>>>Blog ini br jer sy buat so, contentnya blm brapa ok..somehow, ill try my best. Blog ni sume psl aktiv sy di IPGM ( mkin ada la sy share psl asigm ckit ) & hal2 berkaitan kehidupan...point of view on certain situation happened in one's life....hope u all support la k. coment2 la ckit..x kisah la positif ka negatif komen ke....so...enjoy!!!!!