SK Kuala Binyo: My new life begin

“Accept yourself, your strengths, your weaknesses, your truths, and know what tools you have to fulfill your purpose.”
― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free


Jetty

It's kinda freak me out when I saw this jetty for the first time but I guess I'll get used to it later..


SK Kuala Binyo signboard

Presenting....My school


Teacher's kuarters

My new home in a foreign land


School's building



I know that time will help me get use to this new enviroment..It's not as bad as I imagine...Sekolah pedalaman? Say YES, I'll do it!!!!!!!!I'll take the challenge!!!!!!

A Journey to Bumi Kenyalang: A Journey of Life

“Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson



1st Day

At last,the journey begin..Well its my second + alone again journey...Its my first time to Sarawak, a foreign place in my own country..hmmm well its my first flight alone..As soon as I arrive in Bintulu Airport, I contact a teacher from the school..He will pick me up at the airport and send me to an inn in front of the jetty.I'm really thankful for that he is a really friendly guy and he show me places and stuff and he even buy me lunch and breakfast (I feel bad for that as I didn't really like people spend me meal) Gosh I still regret letting him do that..And Bintulu and Sarawak is just a really far and foreign place for me.

2nd Day

Time to get on the boat for the first time to get to my school..Its nerve-wrecking coz I just didn't use to it..well it's not bad as it seem actually , kinda ok la...no motion sickness at all...as soon as we arrive at the school jetty, I looked around and was like "ow, ok..not bad"...And I walked on the trail made of wood to get to my arranged house...Luckily, my new housemate is really friendly and she show me where and how and basically help me to adapt to my new environmet...That night, I arranged all my stuff and prepare myself for what I may face the next day.....

To be continue............


p/s:worry bout the grammar error while writing this post but naah...whatever la

My very 1st Birthday Present

Before leaving for Sarawak in a few day, I saw a box of chocolate in beautiful blue ribbon and I smiled...Funny but I'm touched...Its was a present from my friends (Meow & Nanz) before our SPP interview last year..

As long as I remember, I've never get any gift for my birthday.Well actually, I did get a small blue pencil case in elementary school once but that didn't count coz I told my sister-in-law that its my birthday..And after that its a history, nobody actually care bout my birthday..Even I myself already forgetting bout it a long time ago...Its kinda sad actually coz its seem that its like nobody really care the day you were born in this world..

But the chocolate was an unexpected one...Meow was surfing in my room and I was in the bathroom..I came in and saw the box with a card. I read it and it said "Happy early birthday and eat it for your birthday - from Meow & nanz"...I looked at her and she smiled..I'm so touched, felt like for once in my lifetime someone actually care..Its kinda sad coz I'll be separate from them...gonna miss you guys..

Well, I guess one have to care for their own self right?..I guess in the future I'll celebrate it myself or with my new friends or I just go where my friends are...

The woman who lost her way

I think that my future crumble upon me when I got the news that I have to leave to other state for my teaching post. It felt that a heavy rock pound my heart thousand times and I just can't help laughing..Am I crazy? No, I'm laughing coz the unthinkable is always happen to me..Whatever and whenever I plan for something, Allah will always show the unthinkable road for me to follow...

I've already plan what i want to do in the next 5 years of my life, buy a car, a house, doing my master and such and it's only revolve in Sabah or maybe peninsular Malaysia..And seriously I never have a flinch about sarawak and there I am in a few days. Thing just getting worst when I don't know much bout Sarawak and it hit me that how am I gonna turn my plan into reality in a place that so strange to me. I spend the next days organizing everything in a track and the rest is in K.I.V as I have to see whats waiting for me in Sarawak.

I've searched a few quotes that may help me feel better.



“If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there.” - Lewis Carroll

“Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.” - John Lennon

Maybe, well maybe my plan is just unreal and I have to wake up to see whats ahead.

“Just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can.” - Nicholas Sparks, At First Sight

Absolutely right...After spending days in thought, I got a hunch that everything will be just fine or its maybe just my brain playing a defense mechanism against all of the bitter truth..Reality is harsh.I know that for a long time but when it keeps coming, its really hard for me to consume...Anyway, what I always tell myself when reality struck is everything happen for a reason and I will wait for that reason...

Giving an advise?

Aha!!!! It's my first post in 2012...It's a new year tapi sy x rasa excited plak...hmmm maybe there's something wrong wit me..anyway today I want to talk bout giving an advise to people..Baru jer lepas beri nasihat kat anak buah bout things tht she should really start to care ...especially in relationship wit family, how she should behave to avoid criticism & wht is more important in life..Felt like I'm gone to far..Am I?

It's not like I want to be a busybody in the family, but I saw her grow up and I saw how my family's member change in a hard way.. In all those time, I kind of understand wht they expect to and wht's not in their family..My niece is wht I called in a stage of a "teenager"...I am understand her need to be free and with her friends and things like tht ,but all of it comes out in a way tht older people think bad...

Then, I decide to give her a piece of advise on stuff like care bout other people especially her parent coz she will definitely depend on them if she want to have a better education and stuff like that...I just hope she will get wht I mean and change...well hope it didn't make it worse...

Gosh, why did I fell like I just make things worse..I felt bad, but I'm telling the truth, right?...Duh I'm talking to my self again..keep telling myself tht I'm not a busybody in other people's problem..she's my niece anyway...well, I hope everything will be just fine and she'll take my advise for good use

Alone in the crowd

Hi guys, its been a long time since I wrote my last post here..Sorry, just having d busiest time ever in my life & it just keep comin..but I'm trying to write something somehow..

I want to ask sometin...Have you ever face the time when nobody listen to you. I have,like all the time...As I remember, only my mother and a few can counted friend ever listen to me & what I said..I mean really listening & not just listen...I feel disapointed on myself...Maybe I'm just a boring person tht nobody listen to me..But isn't tht just not nice..Sometime I feel tht I didn't deserve this..I do listen to people so it's kind of unfair. Huh (sigh)... I'm kind of lonely coz it felt tht nobody really care bout wht I said...Huh (sigh) again....

I'm lonely and lonely and lonely or maybe I'm just a really boring person

Akon's song "lonely" suit me best...~ Lonely, I'm miss lonely, I have nobody, I'm on my own ~ la la la

The situation where nobody listening to me kind of made me use to it. You know wht I'm just going to shut my mouth...Its not like I'll die if nobody listen to me..I'll talk to myself then..And one day I'll find people tht will appreciate me more..This is ridiculous..I deserve better...I'll tell the world tht I'll live my life to the fullest..Being nice to people is a waste...I'd better take a good care of my ownself

p/s: Sometimes being selfish is a must

Wooohoooo....

Salam utk suma...fulamak lama dah tak post kat blog ni...rindu plak..Hari ni takde bende yg specific nak di citer...Just want to tell you guys yg sy dah msk last semester...Already? hehehe...lamanya blajar baru nak hbs..5 tahun oo bukan kejap tu..Orang tua2 kate klu dah kahwin dah ade banyak angkatan dah (Anak la)...Tapi takpe penantian tu tinggal kejap je lagi...klu kira betul tak sampai 4 bulan je lagi ...perggghh tapi penangan keje utk bulan2 terakhir ni..blh gilo ke milo ooo

Tapi kan yg saya heran sangat ni, apsal cam takut plak ni.. ye la pasni bkn bergelar student dah tp dah jd org bekeje...hehehe ( bahasa yg sy guna pun tak hape2 entah )..Org sekeliling pun bkn kawan2 dah bersama selama 5 tahun, tp org2 lama yg dah lama bekeje...aiseh takut plak ...ketar pala lutut ni...mcm ilmu di dada ni blm cukup plak..

Tapi takpe ( banyak juga penggunaan tapi ni )...tu pasni blakang kira..gue nak siapkan keje yg menggilakan ni dlu ( walaupun takde mood )..k chow for now...

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